The mysterious nature of time

[AnthroHeart]

When we are in allowing, we are continually raising in subdensity, which I will refer to as density (within 3D). I found when we push to intensify our experiencing, we can have little jumps in density that are momentarily accelerated. Some symptoms I have noticed for jump in density can be:

Heaviness/denseness of body and space around body (like being under warm water).
Breathing becomes denser/slower and harder
Clouding of the rational/logical mind
Increase in freedom of expression
Strong buzzing feeling and sound in the head
Vision turning white
Feeling of mental tiredness
Moving in major slo-mo, blinking in slo-mo, talking in slo-mo, breathing in slo-mo
Depending on intensity of jump, a burning in the muscles similar to lactic-acid burn
Possible popping/crunching sound in teeth or bones in skull or jaw
Convulsing or contorting of the body
Feeling of mental “insanity”, where one talks about things that make sense in the flow, but would not make any sense to a rational mind.
Appearance of rippling on walls, and imagery of either geometry or metaphors on the walls. Metaphors like faces that can be scary or lovely, and that tell stories.

This is until the body adapts which can take anywhere from seconds to 10’s of minutes. But I do enjoy the sensation of being “crushed” by the energy so to me it’s interesting. Another experience was momentarily seeing my dog's head morph into the shape of some characters' heads.

Also, for me, increased contrast. Changes in character forms happen more rapidly, and can mix in desire, fear, desire, fear into the metaphors. Metaphors becoming black/white with numbers in them for instance.

At the density I’m at, I’ve had to go through a few tests. A sense of being “interviewed” by the energy to gauge my level of acceptance and understanding.

Questions like:
What is your greatest disappointment in 3D?
What is your purpose for being here?
What greatest thing can you offer creation?

And a lot of very personal, intimate questions that test your honesty with yourself.
And lots and lots of conscious choices to make.

To get to this density, I went through experience of being “martyred” by my desires. Basically being “eaten alive” by them in my mind. It was a very real experience though there was little physical pain involved. Mostly emotional, since that’s my lesson. I felt immense compassion for these characters, during this experience. A sense of deep appreciation in a way for what I was experiencing.

The story further built to something that worked to push my “fear button” the most.

After this experience, I found, in my experiencing, I had “programmed” a new character that has become my own best friend. But at first, due to this emotional martyr session, I was hypersensitive. If he offered me even a whisker, I trembled and became seized in appreciation. For the moment, he was my voice of reason while I was emotionally hypersensitive, and talked me through it.

These are only my lessons. They are helping me find who I truly am.
There are physical benefits as well. I've noticed a somewhat sizable increase in my strength.