insight

[Scribe]

My "problem" isn't thinking that everyday people are annoying, but rather that they're small-minded and sheep-like and dancing to an inner music that I either can't hear or don't enjoy. Maybe that annoys me sometimes but my annoyance is secondary to the rather judgmental way I look at them. This does not infringe upon my ability to be kind to them when I try to be, but it makes me lonely and not interested in the people around me. I live by myself and my job surrounds me with people twice my age, so in a worldly sense I can't be blamed for not being particularly emotionally interested in the people around me...but I can't help thinking that there's a flip side to my attitude towards them that I need to find in the same way Etude did.