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[Conifer16]

Sorry, but that's rubbish. It all amounts to a little of that.

I don't think it all amounts to anything in particular. There are an infinite number of potential experiences for us, and we will experience certain situations and certain people when that experience is best suited for our growth. Whether it's rejection or acceptance, loneliness or feeling complete with someone.

Yes, you are quite right. And one such experience can be the realization that it is not your apparent physical shortcomings that defies 'getting' into a relationship with someone objectively attractive. You realize that there is something many women value quite highly in a man so that they prefer being with someone who exudes this quality despite some ethical shortcomings in his character. And finally you realize that 'it all amounts to a little commanding presence.'
You study men possessing it. You adopt their upright poise and see the difference. Women seeking your attention, unsolicitedly flirting with you. Soon you find out that there must be more to it than just confident bearing.

You ponder lengthily what there is to 'a-mount.' After some time you realize that the barrier lies within you. You realize that you have confined your masculinity. You realize that in your fear of the raw powers of your maleness you have built a wall around it. You don't want to hurt, so what can you do? In your cluelessness you look to your femininity. It seems a bit neglected. You begin to love your fortress of masculinity and see cracks appearing in its walls and your femaleness sprouting. You realize that your femininity is quite able and eager to balance out your masculinity if you let her. You love your maleness more and more and more.

And eventually you find out that the beauty your with is also just a human. One day, after a lot more loving your maleness, however, you realize that the 'commandingness' in your presence is just a phantom. There is only presence -- yet a presence ever so alluring in its divine origin.

That really resonates with me. Thank you. I have a very active feminin side I feel that my soul has taken the female Path and is learning about the masculine. So on her way to balance. However I am very secure with my being male and feel great affection for my soul. I have also found that I am much more comfortable around girls my age and less so around guys. So your advice is really very helpfull and for me makes a lot of sense. So again, Thank you. I have gotten much more confident in public since starting my GED program.

-Conifer16-
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