Yadda Yadda

[Tenet Nosce]

1986

Contact 17 (05 Jan 86)
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I Yadda. I greet you in the love and in the light of infinite Creator. We have so much trouble with instrument who want us to say we come in the name of Christ. We always end up having to say, “Okay.” But we always wonder, why not Buddha? Why not Mohammed? Why not some postman that we know of in Washington DC who is good to his children and gives away many Christmas presents to little children he does not know? All are Christ. All are perfect in consciousness. Yes—we come in the name of Christ, for we are the vibration which cannot be reached without going along the path of the Christ.

We not speak long but we come because we are called and we thank you. We speak to you of “why families?” There is that question in the group this evening.

You know, families sometimes difficult to be in, so why do you have them? Do you have them so you can have people that you like about you? No, my friends—many times people in family not like each other at all. So what is lesson? Why so important that you have those people that are true kin to you?

We say to you, it is to offer you a chance to learn duty and honor, for with family, you cannot say, “You are not family—go away!” No, my friends, you have to take care of each other. It may seem like a ridiculous thing but it is a great learning. If you can feel responsible for each other, then you learn service to each other, not because service is always fun, but because service is freedom. Service is your only freedom, for if you choose not to serve, then you have stopped your progress and are no longer “poh-werizing,” polarizing—hah! We getting better—heh?!

Think it over, friends. Families are a pain in the neck. So why do you want a sore neck? Maybe to get your attention—heh? We leave you. We are joyful and leave you in “glate” joy for the night is full of light and the shadows are full of light. We Yadda. Adonai.

Contact 18 (12 Jan 86)
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NOTE: This is also the first session with contact from Q'uo.

I, Yadda, greet you in love and light of infinite Creator. We almost not get in this time because we have continuing difficulty with the challenging in name of name, that is, in name Jesus rather than in vibration of Christ or Christ consciousness. This instrument hard-headed on this point. However, we wished to give thanks to this instrument, as always, for the challenging and appreciate it even though it is pain in neck.

We wish to say greetings to the one known as J who call us at this time, and we only leave the thought with you that the naming is important and is not important. Is important to name those things which are precious because a name can be equal to the essential vibration of that which is dear. Naming unimportant because all names become trickier. Consider that you start out on your past meeting and say names to each other. Ah, but if man and woman like each other, soon they stop the name and make up the pet name and the nickname and the affectionate name. There go the so-called real name never to be seen again in the relationship possibly.

The essence of a thing is that which is its vibration. So, name important if it vibrates truly as you name yourself, feel your own vibrational system and know that that essence is your name and will be until the creation has coalesced and all become One.

We use name now to say farewell. We Yadda—but you can call us sweetheart. We leave you in love and light of the unnamed infinite Creator. May you vibrate with this allness and find joy therein. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

Contact 19 (20 Apr 86)
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I Yadda. I greet you in the love and in light of infinite Creator. We say “okay” to this instrument about challenging in the name of Christ. We so lonely for someone to say, “Do you come in name of Zoroaster?”—he was a good guy, you know. Why always the Christ, Christ, Christ? My goodness! Christ! You know there are many teachers, but one Source. Why you not challenge in name of Source?

But that okay. We go on to what we have to say. One, two, three four, five, A, B, C, D, E, you, me, you, me, you, ye, yah, yah, yah. Okay? You get the point. This instrument making nonsense, no sense whatsoever—but she doesn’t care.
Why you so serious? Why, we ask you? If this instrument can be trained, seriously trained—yes she’s very serious, you know, but she is a careful instrument so we can use her for example—and we did. This instrument willing to make a fool of herself because that’s what we gave her to say. It not important to her to make sense.

Why you so serious? You are the people who have too many clothes on. You wear four coats, three sweaters, sixteen pair of pants. What you protecting yourself against in this seeking of yours? It is good to be naked against love. That all we have to say to you. Be a fool for love. Do what comes in your heart to do. And don’t look back.

We Yadda. We leave you in joy and we hope that you may enjoy your seeking. We leave you in the love and light of infinite One. Adonai. Adonai.

Contact 20 (15 Jun 86)
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I Yadda. I greet you in love and light of infinite Creator. We not give instrument any trouble this time about coming in name of Christ because so many others have been giving her trouble about whether we do or not. We better tell her, “Of course we come in name of Christ—why would we send someone, we of the Confederation which cares so much for consciousness and its development, why would we send someone to live in Christ consciousness if we did not come in that name?” Our only gripe is that this instrument pick the one Jesus, who carried perfect Christ consciousness—so did some other good teachers—but we do not to argue that.

Of course we come in name of Christ. How else would we come? There is only one love and that love’s consciousness is Christ. That what we show, pure compassion, you know.

Okay. We come to talk about shadows. You know, you all think you so vivid there in this room as you sit and watch the sky far into the beautiful evening. You think maybe you should even paint the face a little even, eh, you women? Heh? Make yourself more vivid? Well, we tell you, you are nothing but shadow. You know what you do in this incarnation? Heh! You build. You are architect. You know what you build? Something you cannot see. That why you don’t know about it and you go about painting face and putting on funny clothes, eh heh!?

Now. What you build? First thing you build, you build something called you. What you gonna look like when you enter larger life? This instrument say “larger life,” she means death. Okay. We not know if we larger, but we have more fun—eh heh! Anyway, we want you to know that you are building something called you. You build day by day by weary, weary day. It is weary—we know—we not argue that. What we encourage is that you know that the face you see in the mirror is not what you are doing here. What you are doing here is you are building behind the shadow world that whole person that you can, are and shall be.

Furthermore, second thing. You build other things. You have mate—yes? Then you build a person—not you, not me. It called “relationship.” Okay. You not see that, but that what you building. What you putting into that building. You cannot control what your mate builds—you control what you build. Forget the shadows of your mirror. Forget what you can see and move to what you are building. You architects of the spirit.

We come to you in love and leave you in love. We come to you in light and so we leave you. We thank you for calling us. We getting our words better—heh?! We so glad to see you and we say good-bye. We Yadda of Confederation of Planets in Service to One Infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

Contact 21 (13 Jul 86)
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I Yadda. I greet you in love and in light of infinite Creator. It our privilege to be with you this evening. We receive call with some puzzlement because we have to evaluate our audience. Here in this domicile we speak with unified group, unified in thinking and in tuning to this specific sparkle of light—heh!—I say that well, did I not? Yet also there is the somewhat larger audience of the metaphysics magazine which has requested our words. This audience not unified this particular moment in space/time. What we gonna do to speak to all the bozos instead of a few?

Well, you can’t please everybody, so we decided not to worry about it, but to touch this group and through the concerns therein, touch all. So, we greet in thought all who may read these words, for we know that in the face of those in this room are all of your faces; within a few thoughts, all thoughts. For is there more than one path? Even though each has a unique way of taking it, in the end your feet move the same dust as spirits before you, and you leave the dust behind you as blessing for those after you.

So! We would speak this evening, and would thank you again for this great pleasure of the function of desire and of the tools that you may use to further your desire. Now you have desire [of] many things, but we speak of the strong desire for the truth that motivates the seeker. You do not want an answer as much as you want a clear understanding of the question.

The question, in our opinion, that each of you faces in your present incarnation in third density is, “How do I love? What is love? What has love to do with me?” This constellation of questions is the spearhead of your desire as a seeker.

Now we have gotten the question straight. That was easy—heh?! It is more difficult to clear away the stumbling blocks that have been placed before you by yourself than it will ever be to recognize truth. What are these stumbling blocks? There are two main stumbling blocks to the seeker. The first is the determination of seekers to think within the head without the slightest concept of how to go about the process of thinking. It is understandable that you should have this problem because your culture is fast and shallow, like a stream that has no depth, but moves very quickly.

So, your thoughts dart hither and yon but do not achieve the depth that you wish. Do you know why? Ah?! You know it is because you do not observe, you do not give yourself time. You cannot think until you have observed and gotten something to think about, you know. It is putting the cart before the horse, heh? To think right off the bat, you know—you cannot do that.

Now, what should you observe before you begin thinking upon the truth of love? What should you not observe, for everything speaks to you of love.

The second great stumbling block—that was a good one too; you hear those L’s coming right out—to seeking the truth of love is your opinion of yourself. Now, you know you were born into “ihwusion.” Wait—we gonna say that right, we gonna say it—il-lu-sion. You were born into an illusion. Your scientists tell you about this illusion, but you have known it was an illusion forever. Philosophers have told you this; masters and teachers have shared this with humanity always. This that you experience is to be observed, but it is not the answer—it is the way to the answer.

You are, as you look at yourself in the mirror, a system of electromagnetic vibration that is held together as a field so that the various elements within the cells of your body can work symbiotically to sustain a physical vehicle for experiencing of self-consciousness. Now we get closer. We begin to move around the stumbling block of self. If you see somebody in that mirror that is a certain age, weight, sex, makes a certain amount of money, has a certain number of degrees from learned institutions and a certain number of children, you are falling flat on your face, you are stumbling so much. You must lose all those provincial ideas about yourself if you wish to seek the truth of love.

For how can you love without any reservation? This entity that is so-many years old, and so-many feet high, has so-many names and letters after the name, and just and so-many children. If there was the ultimate love for this series of specified quantities, then you could not love others the same way. No, my friends—you must look in the mirror and see perfection. Now, how you gonna do that unless you remember that you are a collection of well-arranged atoms housing self-aware consciousness?

If you can remove prejudice from your gaze into the mirror and begin loving yourself not for what you do, not for what you succeed in, but for what you are, then you have opened the gate to learning the truth about love. For if you do not judge yourself because you have done this deed or thought this thought, or been this quality or that, but instead love yourself because you are the truth about love, you are the treasure to love which you seek to find, then you may begin to make “qweer”—we must try again. This instrument have trouble with our accent. We try to say—clear perception of other entities who may have more or fewer children, may have more or less money, may be older or younger, but have no consciousness, but unique experience. So you look into another perfect posit of the Creator each moment that you look upon any entity whomsoever.

When you can learn how to evaluate experience, and when you have gotten over the shock of having such an illusory identity, then you take off your mask, you put the intellect where it belongs, that is, as tool subservient to the widest observation of heart and spirit, then your path shall be more plain to you.

There is one last stumbling block that you now have because of a deeper reason than your culture. You are impatient because you have a physical vehicle which will not be with you long. So, you want to know everything now. You know you must let go of that desire and seek only to know this moment. Everything is in this moment, but this is most difficult for the mind to comprehend. And it is most unusual for an entity to become aware of it without spending much time seeking while standing right in the heart of the truth and not seeing it.

There is a process of waiting in faith and patience and hope. It may only last a moment for someone very close to the moment, very close to love, and in peace and harmony with those about it, but for most of us bozos we will have to wait on holy ground until that moment—and it may be years in coming when we see it for the first time.

Your best ally in this endeavor is meditation. We get each in this room saying, “I cannot meditate well, so how is meditation going to help me?” Well, my dear bozos, no one meditates very well, for the perfect meditation will remove all separation and restore all to unity. It is the force of the will that seeks meditation. It is the faith that moves a visible physical entity to seek the invisible and metaphysical. It is the discipline of doing so on a daily basis that will yield to you a continuing opening into your birthright, for as children of consciousness, are you not heirs to all of the truth? Are you not indeed embodiment of the truth?

Therefore, we ask three things from those who seek. We ask that you discount all conclusions, and instead begin to gather data. In other words, be a witness and remember what you see and hear, knowing that you are seeing and hearing illusion, but that this illusion was given to you by yourself as the experience that will yield to you the truth about love.

Secondly. We ask that you love not your mask, but yourself, and not the tasks about you, but the selves about you. If you must hate instead of love, at least hate that which is consciousness. But, my friends, you will have a hard time hating consciousness.

And lastly, we ask that you meditate and open yourself up to silence, never judging yourself because of the stray thoughts, but always seeking, seeking to be cleansed of all the dust of this path, that you may sit upon the stone, the hard rock of consciousness and be self-aware for the first and most holy time.

We wish you the joy of your journey and good courage in it. We have enjoyed ours and we hope that you do too—you might as well, for you are all on it. For our natures are bound up in our consciousness, and whether or not you try to seek the lessons of love, they will come to you. You might as well study, offer yourselves to each other as you would tasty food—for you are beautiful to each other and you can share love with each other. Hold your hands out to each other and hold all of your heart out to truth.

Before we leave this instrument, we wish to say in answer to this instrument’s question when she challenged us, we did not give her hard time this evening. She was surprised. She said, “This really Yadda?” Well, you see this instrument challenge us in name of Christ, and then she say, “I find Christ in the master known as Jesus, and so I must ask you in name of Jesus the Christ. Do you come in name of Jesus the Christ whom I serve with all my heart,” and so forth. She go through this long thing. Well, we so glad to hear that, because, you know, we do come in name of Christ and this instrument now ask the right way, becoming aware that any man can be love and any Christ can be worshipped, but that the Christ is so sacred that it is up to individual to say, “This is my Christ; this is how I see the face of the Creator, this is how I will follow to the death in order that I may learn the lesson of love.” That why we so eagerly come. We wait long for this instrument to understand this, and we very happy that now we not have to give this instrument all that trouble.
It is a hard thing being a teacher, let me tell you. But we are so happy to be here and to be attempting with these poor words to say that which you all already know, but to say it in a way which you can recognize. He who has ears, let him hear. We Yadda. You know, we may be talking junk, you bozos, so if we talking junk, you throw it out—okay. If we talking in a way that seem good to you, that is a great blessing to us and we could ask for nothing more. As we abide upon our given task with regard to your planetary influence, we say to you—we beg you, “Love each other.”

We known to you as Yadda, and we leave you in love and light—aheh!—of One Who Is All. May your cheeks be rosy with laughter upon the path, may your feet be strong, may your hearts be happy. And may your will to know the truth of love be your walking stick so that you may move gently, at varying speeds, responsive to wind and weather, inner and outer. And always, learn better to love. Adonai. Adonai. Adonai.

More Latwii on Yadda (25 Oct 87)
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Carla: On a related issue. When I was challenging your contact—I do it the same way every time basically, and I always say, “Do you come in the name of Jesus the Christ, whom I serve with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and all my strength?” And you answered not what I’m used to hearing, which is something like “Yes, my child, I am pleased to come in the name of Jesus the Christ,” or from Yadda, “Of course.” You said, “We are with Jesus the Christ.” Was there a reason for the change of language?

I am Latwii, and we have used this phrase this evening, for it best exemplifies that state of our being which we have activated in order to continue the transmission of concept which was begun previously. This has been our choice for this topic, for it is one which deals most wholeheartedly with the concept of love or compassion, and it was our feeling that our own tuning or placement of focus of being would be most helpful and informative with this level of understanding available. Thus, we called upon that manifested by the one known as Jesus the Christ within ourselves in order to be of service to those gathered this evening.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: So from your perception, the phrase which the fundamentalists use, “Christ is Lord, Jesus is Lord”—what you’re saying is that for you as well as for us, you see this Jesus consciousness as being the basic redeemer of human experience, the highest of compassion of love? Is that so? Or would you express your feeling about that phrase, “Jesus is Lord,” in the context of challenging. I don’t challenge that way. It doesn’t seem necessary.

I am Latwii, and if we understand that which has been asked, we would say that that which is loved and accepted is that which has been redeemed. Thus, it is within the heart of love that redemption occurs.

May we speak in a further fashion upon this topic, my sister?

1987

Contact 22 (14 Apr 87)
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I Yadda. I greet in love and light of infinite Creator. I say, “How about Lao Tsu?” This instrument say, “Jesus Christ.” “One Christ good as another,” I say, so we come. We speak about skepticism. Hah! You want to know about skepticism. Open your eyes. What do you know? You know nothing. Look around. Look at tree. You see tree. What you know? You got root, bark, branches, bird’s nest—and leaves! Hah! What you know about tree? Tell me how it grow there. Tell me how it began. Tell me anything about tree except name and wocation. Lo-cation. We gonna say it right!

Now, you look at any other thing, and tell me what you know. What is there not to be skeptical about? Nothing!

Now, let us take what we do not know. Is everything! Everything! What you gonna do? How you gonna think? You have to name names and pretend that you know things. But inside—what you gonna take?

Now, let me ask you another question. What you berieve—what you believe. We getting good with our l’s and our r’s. What you believe is far more important than what you know—because you don’t know anything. So, tell me what you believe in. What you say? How you declare yourself. We say one word—love! Hah! We said it right. This instrument think we crazy. This instrument not like to channel us because we mess up her face. Heh, heh, heh (giggle).

Now you know you not know, but you do not know what you believe, do you? Huh-uh. No. Why you wasting time on knowing things when you cannot know anything? We leave this instrument in love and light of infinite Creator. We know what we believe. We believe in love—for it created us and all that there is. What do you have to say that about? We can never ask a more basic metaphysical question. Adonai, my friends. We are those known to you as Yadda.

Contact 23 (12 Jul 87)
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I Yadda. I greet you in love and in light of infinite Creator. We not have very much to say, only wish to welcome newcomer to group and oldcomers also. We with your group very often, for we find that this group make many joke, and this is sign of some advancement among your peoples. So many on your spiritual path that cannot make a joke, that cannot laugh. This make the journey heavy and mud cake the feet of the poor pilgrim along the way and cannot go very far. Make yourself merry, my friends, be full of joy. Let it bubble forth, and you will find wisdom beneath the laughter. We go now, we only wish to say hehwoe—hel-lo. That better! Hah? We goin’ speak this language soon. We go in love and in light of infinite One Who Is All in All. Farewell, my friends. I Yadda.

Contact 24 (26 Sep 87)
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I Yadda. I greet you in love and light of infinite One. We have to say we come in name of Christ again. Why not once Zoroaster? Huh? We wish that this instrument would stop being so provincial, but we come in name of Christ—of course.

So. We want to be a part of this team show, you know. We going to say a few words to you about this subject of the evening. We want to know why you people are so interested in one thing and do another? This puzzle us. Say you love the clothes. Why it not make you happy to go try on all your clothes? Why, you could spend hours that way. Hmm? Or, if you want to be peaceful, why you not be peaceful? You all the time talking and arguing as if that was what you wanted to do. The strife and confusion leave the one who does not want strife and confusion. So, drop away and forget what you have decided is not important, and then you will have a merry life, a merry life!

I Yadda. We want you to have a life of joy. We want for us to have a life of joy and we have one. Oh, we enjoy ourselves. Now you too, desire more clearly and visualize your peace and your love, and this love will be all around you. Be merry. We leave you in love and light of the infinite Creator. We are Yadda. Adonai.

Contact 25 (01 Nov 87)
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I Yadda. I greet you in love and light of infinite One. We could not resist the opportunity to speak about the breath—you know, that a pretty good question. We feel there are points to be made and we will make them briefly.

The concept of life as breath and breath as life is natural for you, for you must breathe to live. However, the true breath is the breath of light—not the oxygen, but the prana which comes to all who recognize the tremendous power of that which move on the face of the water.

You see, you as the body are like the planet. Your being, cell by cell, is water. Thus, as the physical breath moves upon the face of the water of your body, you have life. And as that which this instrument calls spirit move upon the face of consciousness, you have another kind of life, that which in your Christianity you call Holy Spirit. We do not wish to devalue the infinite goodness of heavenly food which is light, but we wish to have you respect yourselves, for what could this light enliven if it were not for the wonderful complex of vibrations which create the energy field which is yourself. You are the water of life. You are the material of the universe. You are the expression. Open, as you would open the lungs to breathe air. Open to that which move upon the face of the water. Think not about your condition, your foolishness, or your virtue, but only that you are material waiting for more abundant food. Such is the breath of the spirit.

We happy to speak with you, and we give this instrument trouble and more trouble, and we apologize. But she irritate us with this Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ. However, Christ is Christ, and we always are happy in the end, no matter how provincial we find an entity’s expression of Christ, to come in the name of Christ, for that is the name of Love. And it is in that light and love—how you like our L’s tonight? We doing better, eh? Heh, heh? It is in that love and light that we leave you now. Adonai. Adonai. We Yadda. Adonai.

1988

Contact 26 (07 Feb 88)
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I Yadda. I greet you in name of love and light. I am happy to be with you. It is your call to me, you say to universe, “Ah, I have a winter heart!” You say, “Look at the landscape.” How you like my new, better English? Ha ha, I good. You do not know what is going on in winter energy if you think that all is gray and desolate. You do not see the joy of the seed, the patient gathering of food in the roots of being of your second-density trees. You cannot feel the explosive joy that the forms of your water find themselves taking when by the gift of cold they may make visible their crystalline nature and show their magic to the world.

We wish you to warm your winter heart and to be silly and playful in the cold of winter, for your heart does not need to wear the winter underwear and your throat is not stilled because birds sing not so often in your outer ear. Come with me in knowledge that warmth is yours within and that the fire of spring is only possible because of the joy, the dancing joy of the collection of food and drink for growth. Every season happy. No season sad, for all work together. Be merry.

We leave you in joy, in peace, in love, and in light, and even because this instrument insists in name of Christ. We have stopped holding out for Buddha. Zoroaster is not acceptable. We know we have said this before, but we wish this instrument would think about what we say. Adonai, my friends. You know all is one. Somebody tell this instrument. Adonai. Adonai.

Contact 27 (02 Aug 88)
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I Yadda. I with this instrument, greet you in love and light of infinite Creator. We like this instrument. She challenge in name of Jesus Christ. We say, “How about Buddha?” We not fully grasp this instrument’s fanaticism, but even she be provincial, we say, “Okay,” because she passionate, she care, and she real. And so are we. We come in love and light of infinite One, One Who is All, and we come only because we wish to underscore need for laughter, need for merriment, and need for intensity of life. Not the outer life. You must forget all those clothings you put on your body and on your mind and on your head. All those hats you wear—mother, father, employer, employee, all those things—take them off, throw them away. You want a reputation? Do not go into spiritual seeking. No reputation to be had there. No, sir. You must think carefully before you become one interested more in the inner journey than in the outer journey. You know you gonna die. But you know why you alive?

Did you like that? I got “L”—I said “a-Live.” I did that! I’m getting better! We urge you to see that many things drop away, so you may find the true intensity of your being. May you do so with jollity.

Ah, jollity! I am almost speaking this instrument’s language now!We so glad to speak to you. We thank you for calling us here. We bless each, and we go, for we not talk long. We yours in love and light of infinite Creator. On behalf of this passionate Christian, this provincial one, who yet knows the universe, and to all of you provincial people, whatever you believe, believe passionately, believe wholly, believe without the thinking and without the judging and without the reputation and the respectability, but find the jolly times. Adonai. Adonai. Adonai, my friends. IYadda.

Contact 28 (04 Aug 88)
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I Yadda. I come in love and light of infinite Creator. We come with thanksgiving too. What would the one known as Yadda—we ask this instrument perhaps to become with this one erect … that work better, the lying down, not working. I Yadda. I now attempt to transfer to the one known as (inaudible). I Yadda.

(Pause)
(Carla channeling)

I Yadda. I again with this instrument. We say, “Hah, we almost got it, we wish he be patient.” We now transfer to one known as R. I Yadda.

(R channeling)
(Shouted)

I Yadda. I am with this instrument. This is very interesting. We want to do this really much. Oh, I forgive myself. I come light and love of infinite Creator, and then finally in (inaudible) of Christ. Yadda! Very good! This instrument exercise (inaudible). Hhmm. Long time, long time ago, Yadda walk this Earth. Yadda wish to thank this instrument for patience, for Yadda very anxious (inaudible) waiting, WAITING, WAITING, WAITING! For such a long time. He’s waiting. Sometimes, you know, it gets very hard. Anyway. Ah, we begin.

Maybe I tell you a story, but I don’t quite know how to get into it. This instrument, he … Tell you what, we going to rest this instrument, cause we got GOOD THING HERE. And we be VERY CAREFUL with this one. He good. You know why? Why why? I was waiting why? He like it.

Carla: Your “L’s” are better, Yadda.

You know what? Your “L’s” stink. (Laughter from group.) There really nothing wrong with Yadda “L!” You’re letting “L” just plain, when Yadda got right (inaudible). (Laughter.) This instrument listen. He happy too, but sometime he want to get in and play a little. Have to find a way to put his somewhere. You know what? He say it okay. He did. I not kidding. He say, “Can I say this?”

Yes. HE SAY, (unclear, though very loud, sounds like “transplay!”). She never say this, NEVER! She’s afraid. That’s the reason, but this one not afraid. Yadda protect (sound too loud and too inarticulate to be understood). Yadda almost use words not nice. I don’t know—maybe I do it anyway. Well … It came easy, this one, because he like to swear. But you know why I STOP? Because this one GIVE ME WORD! HAH! I taking no word from this one, I ought as (inaudible) not as prompter. Hah, hah, hah, hah. This very happy business. I like this a lot. You may get very tired of Yadda. Hhmmm.
Please, please understand. This (inaudible) Yadda tell you secret. Yadda come differently to this one than to that one. That one over there, WHOM I LOVE BECAUSE she lets me speak in spite of fear. She knows I’m good, rather just rough. RUFF RUFF RUFF. RUFF. I need a voice like this one because, I tell you something. She right. Yadda … Not this. Cause I tell you, I use it anyway. You being kind. I carry baggage. I don’t wish to say baggage. I carry BAGGAGE. I carry murder, because for LONG TIME, YADDA HATE! HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE, HATE! Now Yadda love. Much to learn in this, I think. I didn’t tell you what I hate, I hated the Chinese. The Chinese KILL AND KILL AND KILL AND KILL. Yadda learn how to kill, oh, Yadda very good at this. If you can say good—but it’s not bad, either. Is INSTRUCTIONAL!

Don’t worry—I give it up. I don’t need to do this anymore. And I don’t need to hate the Chinese either. (Very softly.) Love the Chinese. I tell you why I love the Chinese. May I do this? I love the Chinese because Chinese make Yadda hate. And when Yadda hate, Yadda find out what love is. This instrument think that Yadda like Ramtha. Yadda not like Ramtha. Ramtha there. Ramtha think hot stuff! Yadda think think this instrument hot stuff. Because now Yadda can talk, and talk out loud and talk in terms you want to know. Because you speak in this group, Yadda speak. You all speak in this group of the negative … Yadda like. You speak of the negative side, the one who make you hate. Okay, I speak of this, because the side that make you hate, you made service to look like that. YOU MUST LOVE ’EM! (Shouted phrase not understandable.) Must have hate. I get carried away because it was long and hard.

Ohhhh. Think how it feels. Buddha cares. This one challenge not in Buddha’s name, don’t worry, little one, he CHALLENGE SMART CHALLENGE. HE CHALLENGE WITH … He say, I came in fellowship of the eternal truth of the Christ. Christ everywhere. I no problem with Christ! Only with Jee-sus. But I tell you, this one does not know Buddha, so he say, if I challenge with Buddha, I don’t know what (inaudible) I don’t use that word. I give you new word. He (inaudible) this one, because he don’t like making up stuff he never heard before.

(Sounds like) SHUT UP! You know what?

(This is very difficult to transcribe, and it goes on at some length. The delivery is alternatively violently loud and fading completely away into inaudibility, then back to absolute ROARING. This is an unclear recording with lots of background noise on tape. With this, in addition to bombastic and emotional nature of delivery, and the significant loss of sibilant and other consonant sounds, it is just too difficult to transcribe. It has to be listened to to be believed, anyway.)

(Group retunes after Yadda’s explosive closing.)

Q'uo on Yadda (14 Aug 88)
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Carla: I’d like to ask a shorty. Could you confirm that the protection that I give the circle itself is adequate, or even more than adequate? That people can be confident of it, unless the entity is part of the personality of the new channel, in which case I would have no jurisdiction over it, and that is why I could do no more than talk to Yadda and make sure that Yadda was attempting to control the situation. This is what I believe happened. I just wondered if you could confirm it.

I am Q’uo, and your assumption is basically correct, my sister. The protection that you as teach/learner provide for the circle of new instruments, and the protection that each within the circle provides each other in the seeking is a function again of the clear and simple motivation, the desire and the practice upon the part of each which partakes within the circle. Thus, the circle is, as we find your saying speaks, as strong as the weakest link. However, even the weakest link may be enhanced by the combined efforts of each within the circle. Thus, each adds unto the wall of light, shall we say, that forms about such a circle of seeking, as this circle of seeking has provided its own wall of light.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: I’m just arbitrarily going to stop, because I don’t want to wear the instrument out. Thank you very much. I’ll ask another time.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

J: I have one. Again, I realize you may not be able to answer this question, but with the “R incident,” I realized it was not really … it was our incident, it was not what we call the “R incident,” but I’m doing it because I don’t have another name for it. But I just want to clarify, let them all realize that we were all key players in that situation.

What I’m confused about is when the situation did occur, how much R was channeling himself, and how much he was channeling something outside of himself. The reason I’m concerned is because of something he said in reference to me which has (inaudible). Let me try to put this question in a way that you might be able to answer it.

Okay. If you can give me percentages, say, how much R was channeling something inside himself, how much of Confederation membership he was channeling, and how much was psychic greeting?

I am Q’uo, and we find that there is a difficulty in answering with precise percentages in regards to the efforts of the one known as R to serve as a vocal instrument in the one case, and the efforts of the one known as R to deal with a difficult personal situation in another case. We may suggest that all new instruments—and this includes the one known as R—begin the channeling process with a fairly significant portion of the channeled message being of their own origination. This is in order that the new instrument might begin the process, and we of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Creator find it helpful to spark those personal memories and experiences within the new instrument which are congruent with our understanding of the Law of Love and the Law of Understanding and Unity in order that a beginning might be made.

As the new instrument becomes more experienced, this percentage of personally originated material shrinks until it is approximately thirty percent, and thus our portion would be the greater, that is, seventy percent. Thus you may see, the new instrument begins with a fairly significant, even a majority of the information channeled having its origin within the self of the instrument. We may suggest, therefore, that you not be overly concerned with any information which was transmitted during the experience of the one known as R which each present within that circle did indeed have a part to share, however small. We would not suggest that the information channeled through the one known as R therefore be given very great weight.

May we speak to any further query, my sister?

J: No, thank you. I really appreciate your answering the question, but I like your answer.
Carla: I can’t stand that—I’ve got to ask a related one. From what I could tell, by the time R was on the floor, he was channeling a mixture of a negative entity, which called itself anything it wanted to, and wanted to control, and a portion of his own personality which had the same basic motives, thereby forming a rather efficient service-to-others channel out of a very sensitive, positive instrument. Can you confirm this? That there was not Confederation content in that message on the floor?

I am Q’uo, and we may make this basic confirmation with additional notation that there was a slight misperception in your query concerning the nature of the service offered.

Carla: Does that have to do with my Christian background? That distortion?

I am Q’uo. We simply meant to speak to what we feel was a misstatement on your part in using the term “service to others” rather [than] “service to self.”

Carla: Oh, thank you very much. Yes. I meant service to self. Yeah.
I am Q’uo. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Is that why he wouldn’t [let] me touch him, and he wouldn’t let me in the circle? Because I was too much of a polarized towards service-to-others nature?

I am Q’uo, and we find that we again approach that line of infringement across which we do not wish to step at this time.

Carla: May I ask if there is more than one motive for not allowing the touching? Or if there is only one? That would help me in my thinking.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We do not wish to either confuse your thinking or to clarify it at this time, for to do either, we feel, would be an infringement. Thus, we choose not to speak to this query.

Carla: You would recommend simple analysis then?

I am Q’uo. We would recommend your powers of analysis be applied, your powers of prayer and meditation be added, and that the clarification of time passing might also be an aid in this case.

Carla: Well, I sure do thank you a lot for answering. I’ve been pestering you. I’m sorry. I’ll stop.

I am Q’uo. We thank you. Not only for your queries, my sister, but for your deep desire to serve, as well. Is there another query at this time?

1989

Contact 29 (16 Jul 89)
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[I am Yadda.] I speak only briefly. But wish to say to each here, there is one thing which acts as a brake, a stopping mechanism on the learning, and that is fear. When one is afraid, one cannot see whole and unity. Many of your concerns are only fears, and fear is an inappropriate emotion, for you have nothing to fear. Where can you go except the creation? Who can you be, except yourself? You can never be crushed.

It is simply that you, for a time, might decide to be afraid. What are you afraid of? Speak your mind and never worry about the reputation, the opinion of others, or even your opinion of yourself. But do the walk you came to do, and lose the fear which stops your evolution. Replace it consciously. Give it a good hour without fear. With hope and faith, these are the keys, not fear. Not the one who is unworried but simply the attitude of being a positive and loving positive and let people deal with you as they will. You are responsible for yourself. You may be as happy as you chose. You lose the fear, please.

We thank this instrument. She not challenge us to death this time. We have learned that we must follow her wishes or we cannot speak. So we thankfully [leave] in the love and the light of the One Who is All. I am Yadda.

Carla's First Letter on Yadda (06 Sep 89)
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CAVEAT: Warning! These letters have not been edited by Carla. Expect errors.

Letter to R and K1

September 6, 1989

This is a letter to R from Carla and also K1, I imagine you listen to it together so I’ll talk to both of you. The date is the first Wednesday in September which turns out to be September 6, 1989. Imagine that—Fall! When I hear “Fall” I start thinking about the first days of warmth in the Spring (laughs) I really should live in Florida. Let me put down that I’ve responded to this last letter—Jim started this for me as he went out the door and I don’t dare touch the machine—you know I’m just death on those machines. I wish that somebody could sit down and figure out what electromagnetic thing I have in my hands—could it be grounded, or could it be annulled in some what so that I could type on a typewriter, work a computer, work a tape recorder—I break so many things and it’s not me, it’s just something about my electrical field, because I certainly don’t wish anyone in the tape recorders or electronic equipment to have a bad time. So much for that.

I am going to have to paw through and find your letter because it was a first one, since I’ve been gone for three weeks, but I think … (Telephone rings) … here we go, it was in fact, near the back. That was a heart sister and I couldn’t not answer her and she wanted to send condolences and I will tell you why: my father died. It was a blessing because he had emphysema really badly, he was on oxygen all the time and couldn’t really move—if he went upstairs he had to stop on the landing and catch his breath. So he was really, really so uncomfortable and he’d been uncomfortable for at least a year. So he suffered a massive heart attack—an infarction and defibrillation couldn’t be stopped, and it just happened in the hospital with all the equipment on to document what happened to him because he was in already, there were other things going wrong—his legs were swelling and people were getting a little panicky not knowing that he might have some besides emphysema and congestive heart failure, but it isn’t a sad thing, it’s a happy thing, because it’s a release from pain for him and the entry into larger life is just got to be the great adventure for all of us that we’re looking forward to and there really was never a better man than my father so I’m sure he’s in that big swing dance band in the sky, that was his first love.

Anyway, right about this time that Daddy did die, I was riveted bolt upright in my bed and totally awake and I didn’t know why—it was still dark outside so that means about a quarter to six. Well, I went down to the beach, didn’t disturb Jim, he didn’t know I was gone, he just slept on. I really had a feeling to go down to the beach and watch the ocean and I felt happy, I didn’t feel sad, and I just wanted to watch the sun come up, so I did that and when the sun was up over the horizon, you could see that there were storm clouds everywhere, but the sun had made these grey clouds into lavender, and pink and blue and violet and indigo and it was just wonderful, how beautiful it was, and then I sort of got the urge to go into the water, which I usually don’t do by myself having been a graduate of many years of the “buddy system” at camp and realizing that you can get into a whole lot of trouble in just a few inches of water if there is a bad rip tide or something like that but I thought I’d be okay and I was, and I went out beyond the breakers so that I could just sing, ‘cause I had this desire to sing, and I had a desire to sing two folks songs that I hadn’t thought of in a long time—one is called “The World is a Trouble and a Sorrow” and all the words together are “The world is a trouble and a sorrow, the only bright light is Jesus, you better be ready in the morning to sit on the throne with Jesus, we’ll all be ready in the morning, to sit on the throne of Jesus, and the Chorus is “Bound away for glory, bound for glory and deliverance.”

Well, that was one and the other you probably know so I won’t have to quote it to you: “I’m just a poor wayfaring stranger, traveling through this world of woe, but there is no sickness, toil or danger in that bright land to which I go.” And I really thought my father said goodbye to me in the gentlest, sweetest way he possibly could through the medium of song and healing water and seeing sun rise and seeing that even with the clouds it was beautiful. So when I got back to the cabin, of course not having any idea about this big deal of Daddy dying, somebody had driven over from the real estate office that rents all the island properties, and gave us the note that said “Pop had died and to call Mother.” So I really felt that even though it was a death, it was a victory—it was a blessing, and I really don’t feel any ambivalence about that, I’m just thrilled for him that he’s out of discomfort and pain. Usually, I do not answer letters out of sequence, but when a letter comes overnight mail, I have to respect the energy and the need for feedback from my humble self.

I got the easy part out of the way at first. The channelings are reasonable. Reasonable amount of good Confederation information, no evidence whatsoever of the megalomania that the Yadda pretender pulled on you, I really could not fault, from going through this thing to make sure that I didn’t make anything—seems that I marked one thing that you mentioned, yes, here it is: it’s on page 4 of what you sent me, on the bottom paragraph, third and second line from the bottom: “We would wish to suggest to the one known as R that we are now quite capable of energizing his receiver, shall we say, and that he would be well to not worry about the reestablishment of contact.” I disagree. I may be wrong. But when I get a contact back, I check it not three times, but I check it once and I know I’m already attuned and that’s okay, but I challenge them every time. It may seem like changing the oil every six miles, but to me, the idea of getting a lousy channel simply because I was not concentrated enough or not passionate enough to make absolutely sure who my contact was, that was unacceptable for me.

Now, you do seem to be—these typical first attempts at channeling—oh yes, and on page six I wanted to explain about the acceleration of the heartbeat and the rushes. That’s very typical, it’s almost predictable of a new channel, the rushes and the fast heartbeat and the feeling that your body is swelling up to the size of the moon and that kind of thing, the reason that it’s difficult for them to do that is because they’re not meaning to do that in the first place, it’s just that it’s a high enough energy that as it enters the body complex you react. As you get experience in channeling, you get to the point where you are not uptight, and you’re just perfectly relaxed and you let the channel come to you. Sure, you feel energy, but you don’t feel it as a rush which completely takes your mind off the message. So this is just a phase that you’re going through.

I had something to say about page 6: “We will urge the one known as K1 to consider that her reticence at channeling should be put aside if possible that we may have some flexibility, in providing the teaching experience to both instruments”.

It seems to me that you are not rushing, K1, it also breaks my heart that you don’t have a third person in your group because if you had a third person you would be getting universal material, especially if you ask universal question, whereas, working with two energies you’re going to be getting information that is pretty transparently for this person or that person or both. So I think perhaps one way, R, to think about it, i.e. female reticence, is that woman are not taught as men are to be, I don’t know what the adjective is that I’m looking for is, it is somewhere between “glib” and “honest” if you know the area I mean. Women are taught to bite their tongues, not to be too smart, to please their men, to go along with them, so say “yes sir” or “no sir” if they possibly can, be the ones that adapt because men are not very good at adapting. So all of us women grow up being taught that we need to watch our every word—that we cannot ever be completely spontaneous because we’re women and we need to be pleasant. Now a lot of people have broken free of that, but K1 and I haven’t. (Laughs) We’re still ladies—of some kind. So it’s no wonder that she’s having this problem of reticence. I had a terrible time of it—it took me two months to get my first contact because I had had such a trial by fire as a child where anything I said nobody else understood or conversely, if they understood it, they said “My God, this child, this girl is so bright, what is she doing in first grade,” or something like that, so I grew up watching my mouth. I’ve always been a confidante to many—it’s not too hard for me to watch my mouth because of the fact that I forget everything. (Laughs).

But as the time went on, K1 got better, then here again on page 7, K1 is channeling and she channels: “This instrument has much self doubt. We are aware there are questions.” It’s a continuation of the same rationalization for female behavior. Women are simply not as likely to feel loose about putting their a$$ on the line and maybe sounding completely foolish—because when you completely surrender to a contact, you’re the middleman—you’re not making anything up, and most women don’t really want to get into that position. A lot of men don’t either. But obviously there is the gift there, and I do encourage you not to have too intense a discipline, because you need to balance your discipline times with time, if you’ve been working very hard spiritually, go out and sin a little, keep it light, because if it were light it would be okay to take it seriously, but since this particular area of life—our trying to find the truth out about eternity—is so deep, we can over stimulate our subconscious minds by excessive meditation, so I truly recommend you limit the meditations, not the number of them—you can meditate all you want during the day—but try not to let them go on for longer than say, a half an hour. Jim and I meditate for 20 minutes in the morning and feel that that’s enough, but of course, we do readings too.

As I said, this is the easy part—as to the spelling of the name “adonai vasu borragus,” you can do as well as anybody, needless to say we’ve never seen it. I found it to be very grounded in positive polarity and the only thing I saw that sparked a “wrong” was the part about not having to rechallenge. Maybe it isn’t necessary, maybe I’m being a goofball, but better safe than sorry as they say in safety engineering.

(Leafing through papers.) Yadda managed to get to the point where he was able to say that you are most excellent (inaudible)—I found that to be true, however, “most” is redundant. “Excellent” is a superlative. I could be wrong about that too—no I don’t have any more notes on that at all. I read every word and they looked okay, they really did. They didn’t look like they were going to be publishable real soon but you’ve got to start somewhere.

So, that was the easy part. You have an enormous gift for channeling else you would not have been so split apart by the process of learning it—you wouldn’t have been running those energies and so forth. It seems to me that regardless of the shape that you were in last summer, that this summer you seemed to be in a much more stable condition and I really wish you had a third person there to ground the group. You really need a battery. If you could find somebody who is supportive of you all, whether they understand or whether they accept it or not, just an open mind and somebody who is interested in the channeling process and so forth. Okay, it really would be better if you had a three group—it’s okay for short channelings if there is only two people but for longer channeling you are just going to be getting information that is biased toward your two biases. The third person makes a universal. I don’t know why three is the big number but I have observed it is as a channel. Now, the hard part is expressing how I feel about calling off the intensives as they were.

It is not strange that you have invariably encountered resistance whenever the issue involves communicating (inaudible) because I think we’re in the book, you know. I think the loyal opposition is aware that these two stubborn ninnies are going to be positively oriented regardless, so when somebody catches fire from that and wants to give a life of service you then are standing close to that same light and I’m afraid that your light and K1’s, and my light and Jim’s would be very strong and they really don’t want us to get together and they don’t want anybody together. If you will recall when you came in everybody had had a terrible time getting to Louisville for the summer intensive, so it’s not at all unusual that you’ve had a hard time to communicate.

I really thank you for your discussion about what happened, the changes, however uncomfortable their mechanism was seen was how you put it and I totally accept the fact that it wasn’t my fault that it happened. That’s not the issue here. The issue to me and to Jim was how do we do this in such a way that people are not exposed right away to the kind of intense contact until they’ve done the lower energy center work and Jim was especially strong on this. I was hesitating on the side of those who rush in where angels fear to tread, I wanted to go right on with students and share in that way—share that energy—and Jim just felt that the possibilities of disaster were too great. He simply and rather emotionally for Jim, just said “Nothing is going to happen until I think this out.” And, Jim is pretty terse, and when he says something like that—you shouldn’t feel guilty about your part in this—you were a catalyst for us, but it could have been anybody. As a matter of fact, I’ve had two other people flip out on me, but they didn’t flip out on me during an intensive channeling seminar, and they were disobeying my orders—they were practicing channeling alone at home, so at least I’m glad to have K1 and I would love for you to get a third person because at that point I think you could take over your own development by sheer practice which is, of course, the way I’ve done it, I’m just a bozo too, but you just practice and you practice and you practice and you begin to get some interesting messages.

You’re absolutely right—if you came to me now I would refuse you as a channeling student because that’s Mick’s wish. I don’t like it—I do not like it—I would prefer to continue the intensives because even though I have seen that hardly anyone who learns to channel goes home and channels, the experience is always fantastic for everybody here. The energy hits off of each other and I can feel the group dynamics and it’s just wonderful when people have come and worked hard to get here and now they’re together and they want to learn spiritually—that energy is just incredible. So I don’t argue with Jim because he very seldom says “no” about anything, but when he says “no” it’s because he honestly believes it’s the right response, and I did discuss it with him, but he had thought about it already and didn’t want to do anything until he had sat down and thought about it. So he sat down and thought for quite a while and decided that my suggestion to him might work, and he would feel okay about doing it, and the suggestion was that he take over the lower energy center clearing because he’s been trained to do that. I think I was just born with fairly clear energy. Jim’s been trained specifically to clear lower energy center blockages through essaying, through dreams, keeping a dream journal, and discussing them around the campfire, any manner of stuff like that. Essaying is one of his favorite things. If you have a really bad experience you just rewrite it and maybe give the script to somebody else and live it out, kind of heals that blockage. So he had not himself been doing this, but he went back to it.

(Telephone rings.)