Exactly. I am now aiming to be just friends. And like I said I have changed. I am now perfectly happy to be friends. No longer dead set on relationship. And she is about to turn 15.
That last part of your post. "except whatever is meant to happen" I came to that understanding several months ago. You know just trusting that all things will work out for the best and to just go with the flow and live in the moment. It is very relaxing and I am feeling more happy just being alive then I have in a long time.
also as a slight aside I think I did some automatic writing with a comment on a kauilapele's blog(I think the first word is spelled right. I can't even say it) because I started writing and very quickly I was writing a word and then immediately writting the very next word to come into my mind and I wasn't even really paying attention to what I wrote and so by the end I didn't even know if the post made sense or what it was about. I then posted it and actually read it and it made a huge amount of sense and somehow I was able to express my inner thoughts about the subject clearly(which I have trouble doing usually). So I think I might have "channeled" my higher self briefly without consciously meaning to. But who knows. Anyway thanks for reading,
-Conifer16-
Adonai Vasu Borragus
That last part of your post. "except whatever is meant to happen" I came to that understanding several months ago. You know just trusting that all things will work out for the best and to just go with the flow and live in the moment. It is very relaxing and I am feeling more happy just being alive then I have in a long time.
also as a slight aside I think I did some automatic writing with a comment on a kauilapele's blog(I think the first word is spelled right. I can't even say it) because I started writing and very quickly I was writing a word and then immediately writting the very next word to come into my mind and I wasn't even really paying attention to what I wrote and so by the end I didn't even know if the post made sense or what it was about. I then posted it and actually read it and it made a huge amount of sense and somehow I was able to express my inner thoughts about the subject clearly(which I have trouble doing usually). So I think I might have "channeled" my higher self briefly without consciously meaning to. But who knows. Anyway thanks for reading,-Conifer16-
Adonai Vasu Borragus
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