09-14-2011, 11:56 AM
lol recipes. i juust recoiled when i thought he was talking about recipes for crab. 
i can't stand lobster/crab stuff if it's been boiled alive.
boxing air doesn't work. i'm more vocal and physical. and i yell. the problem is you can't do that without disturbing others. when i am in pain it comes out as a wail or yell and i scream and cry and sometimes slam doors. that's part of my healing but to others it's destructive. i don't know how to make that so everyone is happy and i feel like i will damage myself if i don't let out some of the rage that way. so it's a constant source of karma. me yelling. dunno how to fix that. except removing myself from the situation which i am trying to do.
i can't stand lobster/crab stuff if it's been boiled alive.boxing air doesn't work. i'm more vocal and physical. and i yell. the problem is you can't do that without disturbing others. when i am in pain it comes out as a wail or yell and i scream and cry and sometimes slam doors. that's part of my healing but to others it's destructive. i don't know how to make that so everyone is happy and i feel like i will damage myself if i don't let out some of the rage that way. so it's a constant source of karma. me yelling. dunno how to fix that. except removing myself from the situation which i am trying to do.