My Awakening. Or Grand Delusion. You Choose.

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You were creative in contemplating death in order to improve your relationships with the self and other selves. Although you stated that you are doing just fine, and don't consider such things as suicide, I wonder - are you longing to death/"ascension"?

I simply long for peace and to exist in a peaceful sphere of influence. Not my own little "peace bubble". Real peace. Lasting peace.

I've got it.... it is the huge "sigh of relief" one feels upon departing. That is the feeling I am looking for. If I can find that feeling within this environment, so much the better.

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May I specifically ask you what you mean by this:

Yes. Allow me to provide some seed thoughts for contemplation. Please be aware these ideas were- and are still- in the formative stages and are an attempt to intellectualize what I have been intuitively perceiving.

the abrogation of free will from the Ra contact

the "apocalyptic version" created through the distortion of the Ra communication

Ra made contact with humans. Their teachings were distorted so as to be used to infringe upon the free will of humans, rather than to accentuate it and liberate them. I am sensing this has something to do with the concept of "harvest" as it was originally presented, and its being twisted into the historical eschatology of "Armageddon" as forwarded by those in contact with Yahweh, and passed down to us through the lineage of the Judaeo-Christian-Muslim (Abrahamic) belief system.

This distortion is still -in this very moment- resulting in all manner of confusion as to the nature of this event. In particular is the notion that, since "Armageddon" is upon us, we must look to be "saved" by external figures such as Jesus/Maitreya/ETs etc.

Another way that this creates an issue is because "2012" has become so identified with these catastrophic beliefs, that the average person does not look past that in order to investigate into the true meaning. As a corollary- I have suggested the possibility that a premature focus on "earth changes" in the latest contact by Ra has contributed to a continuation of this distorting influence.

Free will has been abrogated because people are being offered a false choice. It is being framed in an EITHER/OR context... as has played out in this forum as the sudden/gradual conceptions of harvest. I humbly suggest that it is not EITHER/OR but somehow BOTH/AND. Moreover, I am hypothesizing that the ability to shift from EITHER/OR to BOTH/AND style of thinking.... IS EXACTLY THE SHIFT ITSELF.

My apologies if this comment was confusing to you. I didn't mean to imply that Ra's contact infringed upon free will. I am insinuating that the conscious, and repeated, manipulation of Ra's message by Orion influences has resulted in an abrogation of free will by disallowing the populace to perceive that -other choices- are available to them.

Please also refer to my post here in More Positive But Less Harvestable. Specifically the following excerpt:

The main thing has to do with eschatology, which I will admit I didn't know the definition of until a few days ago. Basically, the term refers to beliefs about the end of the world.

What I learned is that there are two distinct categories of eschatology.

The first, called historical eschatology, is the kind you find in the Judaeo-Christian-Muslim school of thought. Which, I can't help but point out, is decidedly militaristic in its view. I'm down with the teachings of Jesus, but let's face it, Jehovah is a war god, pure and simple.

This is classic Book of Daniel and Revelations-type stuff. In this view, time is conceived of as linear and the entire history of the world is leading up to some sort of cosmic climax, after which we all just live "happily ever after" or in "eternal damnation", according to however one is judged by God.

A second, related idea is that of salvation. Again, most people who were raised in Western society take salvation to mean having something to do with a Savior or Hero who comes and rescues humanity from immanent doom. In some New Age circles, the Saviors are ETs come back to save us.

With all due respect to my Jewish, Christian, and Muslim friends, this is NOT the mental framework which Ra is coming from. And I will admit, that much of my frustration in discussing this topic, and with the world in general, is this stubbornly dogged one-track mentality which insists on interpreting EVERYTHING in terms of Judaeo-Christian-Muslim belief systems.

Does this suffice, or do you have further inquiries as to my meaning with these statements to which you referred?