My Awakening. Or Grand Delusion. You Choose.

[Tenet Nosce]

Thanks TN for citing that quote about 5D wanderers, that makes a lot of sense to me! What session was that from? did they talk more about 5D wanderers specifically?

The specific question is 32.9. Here is a link to a search for "wanderer fifth".

Ah and by the way welcome to the forum! enjoy your stay here .

Thanks!

No one on b4th will judge you for being a wanderer, rest assured!

This runs contrary to my experience, but thanks for the reassurance.

Something else that struck me... you call this thread "my awakening". But you write mostly about others people, speculating about their motives or their negativity vis-a-vis you.

You are perceptive... it is my awakening to being a wanderer because this has become a central focus in my life, bearing upon both my past and my future, relative to that nexus. Simultaneously, there was a sense of relief in knowing I wasn't crazy and I wasn't alone... but no sooner did I attempt to reach out to connect with others like myself than I was met with negativity over making such an identification.

What does that say about you? why do you feel you are being met with negativity by others?What does it have to do with you?

Yes, there is a recurring theme. But having a tendency toward verbosity, I figured that writing out an entire autobiography might be an obstacle for the reader.

What does that say about me? That I have a deep natural sense of seeing others as a reflection of myself, and relative difficulty seeing myself in others. This may stem from previous polarization on the STS path... but I am not entirely sure.

why do you feel you are being met with negativity by others? Well I somewhat covered this in the post. I don't really understand why. I just observe that is the case. I have always been extremely bright and talented. Up until I started school this was a "good" thing. Once I hit school, I realized how envious and jealous the other kids became of me.

I truly wasn't trying to flaunt anything in their face... just simply be myself. And so life has gone from there. Apparently, simply being myself pisses people off and activates their self-esteem issues. And this is bullshit, and I am tired of it.

So sorry I am a genius- go f^(& yourself. That's how I feel sometimes. Insert "wanderer" for "genius" and now you see how this pattern plays out in this specific case.

What does it have to do with you? It has everything to do with me because it would appear that "being me" is "wrong" according to the views of many others. We teach in our society to "do your best" but when somebody's "best" passes too far outside the "normal" range, then we turn on them as rabid dogs.

And it is hurtful. It tells a person that society really doesn't want their light. They find the light obtrusive and uncomfortable, and they would much prefer that the light be put under a bushel, or extinguished completely. This is a serious problem.

So here we have a planet of beings who call and call and call for assistance. But when the assistance arrives, they spit in their face and fold their arms and drag their heels. This is disheartening.

But maybe you have some suggestions, Meerie. What do you see?

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I agree, those questions may be better in a discussion thread, rather than your awakening story (finding the Ra Material in 1995)...

Thanks, Namaste. But perhaps you don't realize that this comment results in me thinking... WOW! I can't even write my own awakening story without somebody coming in and telling me that I am doing it the "wrong" way.

But I don't think that was your intention. So perhaps you could tell me what was your intention?

Any more to share? :¬)

What do you suppose would be helpful?