09-03-2011, 12:15 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-03-2011, 01:16 PM by Tenet Nosce.)
(09-02-2011, 10:05 PM)zenmaster Wrote: Use your failed projections as catalyst and learn. Can't have it your way all the time.
Yes, zenmaster, I will surely use this opportunity to acknowledge my low self esteem and hopefully learn to accept myself and others more fully. Thanks, O Wise One, for helping me to see through my own facade. I know that I have repeatedly said that I am not here to convince everybody, but that was just a lie. I have been secretly hoping this whole time that you, zenmaster, will suddenly turn around and agree with me. Maybe even sing my praises? Because my ego is so fragile that I desperately need you to approve of what I am saying in order to feel validated. But you have been extremely loving and excessively wise in your ignoring of my antics. Eventually, my temper tantrum will end, and I will cry myself to sleep having accepted the futility of trying to twist the whole of the Ra material in order to accommodate my highly distorted belief system, which I have created as a self-defense mechanism to protect myself from the extreme state of self-loathing that is constantly lurking in the background of my experience.