Safe Places?

[Richard]

Hi Whitefeather, Ali and Richard

I really admire your positive attitude, at least the way you express yourself here on this forum. I have aspired to attain the mindset that you seem to express, but it still eludes my understanding. Even now, I find myself disagreeing with your posts, a number of the details and statements you make. But essentially, I feel I am missing an understanding.

As I've said, I've meditated and studied on these issues for about six years now, which admittedly is not that long compared to some people who have been aware since the Ra teachings in the '80s, etc. When I hear people such as yourselves make statements that we have total creative control over our life experiences and choosing what energies come into our lives, I simply DON'T SEE THAT in my life experiences. It is a beautiful idea, and I feel in my heart that it is correct on some level, but all I can say is that I have intentionally cultivated a calm, fearless, observer mindset, and frequently affirm abundance, healing, light etc in all of my actions. However, my experience in my life has been what I would call a "struggle", basically for as long as I can remember, with very little relief. I have consciously decided to "release the struggle" SO MANY TIMES over the years, but a month or two later, I find it is still with me. That is the pattern. No matter how positive I feel about things personally, the heaviness always creeps back in, and I have to be very vigilant to not allow myself to become deeply depressed or despondent.

Ali, obviously whatever happened to you in 1995 shifted you away from your previous perceptions. Still I wonder what experiences you had that taught you that you actually have creative control over your existence? I have done sigils, affirmation tapes, "treasure maps" ala The Secret, visualizations, all towards releasing fear and attracting abundance and like-minded friends, and as I've said before I find myself at this point living in the middle of nowhere, making about a thousand bucks a month in a dead end job. And this is after years of meditating and affirmation work, not to mention two college degrees! So, it certainly confuses me, but again I salute your mindset and appreciate its positivity. I would simply love to have such experiences in my own life.
T

33,

Please don’t think that a positive attitude is the result of a life of ease. Its not…life is tough. And, I suspect that Ali has been dealt some crappy hands in life also. I’m older than most here…and my path has been one of ups and downs. Financially, personally and emotionally. Can I say that my current positive attitude has been with me all along? Hardly. But all of us…are the sum of our experiences to date. At this time in my life, I can look back on the bad ol’ times, remember them for the lessons they taught me and know that however miserable those times were…they made who I am today.

Doesn’t mean I want to go through them again. But those experiences taught me not to worry about the things that you have no control over. And to take control over the things that I can. Of course, when you are stuck in a dead end job and life just plain…sucks, platitudes do nothing to ease the discontent. Believe me 33….I know exactly where you are and what you are feeling.

Richard