Safe Places?

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When I hear people such as yourselves make statements that we have total creative control over our life experiences and choosing what energies come into our lives, I simply DON'T SEE THAT in my life experiences. It is a beautiful idea, and I feel in my heart that it is correct on some level, but all I can say is that I have intentionally cultivated a calm, fearless, observer mindset, and frequently affirm abundance, healing, light etc in all of my actions. However, my experience in my life has been what I would call a "struggle", basically for as long as I can remember, with very little relief. I have consciously decided to "release the struggle" SO MANY TIMES over the years, but a month or two later, I find it is still with me. That is the pattern. No matter how positive I feel about things personally, the heaviness always creeps back in, and I have to be very vigilant to not allow myself to become deeply depressed or despondent.

I haven't read this thread, other than this last post, so forgive me for jumping in and if I'm off target in my comments.

According to Ra, third-density positive work is about acceptance and forgiveness rather than control, and our incarnation is carefully planned before birth. If you're finding it difficult to shape your life in the way you want it, it may be that your soul wants it that way for the learning opportunities it is providing you.

Don repeatedly tried to get Ra to give him something like a "magic bullet" that would be the secret key to healing Carla's physical distortions, and Ra repeatedly made it clear that no such bullet existed. It sounds to this uninformed observer as if your life may be analogous, at least at this point.