Guardians of the quarantine doesnt seem infallible

[zenmaster]

I have sensed (so to speak) this experience on the fringes of the moment, but as of yet remain rather stuck (imprisoned, more like it) in a thinking, time-bound mind.

So is this a traditional description of "satori"? If so, from my non-experiential standpoint, I would sure say it was an entry into the moment and a brush with intelligent infinity.

There are different types of experiences in meditation. The satori is an experience that 'sticks' - you inherit something, it becomes integrated in such a way as to always suggest the road to the self, regardless of circumstances. Sure you still have the mental patterning and misunderstandings to balance (which is a 'good thing' because that still gives you catalyst and determination), but they do not have the same impact - you know that which is possible. You now 'know', in an undiminished manner, which has become an essential part of you, that which is 'eternal' and supporting - like a 'guide star' is there. Or rather, symbolically, you have become the 'star' or the lotus.

From my study I understand full immersion into intelligent infinity to be the end of subject and object. There would no longer be a separate "you" to experience something other than you. It would all simply be. Simply be "I AM".

That's exactly what happened - there was no separation from anything. But I felt like everything, I mean everything that was emerging in the moment was a part of me. So you think to yourself, 'what can I 'do' now?' To be honest, I thought everything was so 'holy' or existing in 'perfection' (as I sat there in awe), that I didn't want to change things.

But, I speak from theoretical understanding, not experience. The latter I seek.

This was about 15 years ago, and I think I was reading the Diamond Sutra, the Sutra of Hui Neng, and ''Sufi path of Knowledge' at the time, which I strongly resonated with.