Guardians from the Octave above

[Oceania]

thanks Ky. i think that makes some sorta sense, although i dunno why i was so bad at living now if i was here before. but i guess what makes me focus on me is my OCD and other mental problems, so far they have catalyzed me positive in a sense, but i feel like i've gotten the point and now it's just harmful and depolarizing. it makes me bend towards STS because i'm so agitated by my physical environment. so i get angry and controlling with all things that affect me in it. and i dunno how to cure it. i feel like i can't help anyone, or even be a neutral force. i'm just doing damage by existing and feel like failure cuz i've always wanted to be a good person. i used to imagine being a millionaire and helping lots of people but i can't even manage to live by myself. and the LOO just does not mention how to overcome such things. :/

sorry about whining. i'm so frustrated with LOO right now.