06-22-2011, 02:10 PM
(06-22-2011, 01:23 PM)Oceania Wrote: i dunno. i just know i'm acting mighty STS for someone reading LOO. but i dunno how else to be.i would *like* to make the choice if it wasn't so darn hard. it feels like staying in 3D is the only rational choice if 4D is either pinhead pyramid or bending over backwards to please people. i can't even manage normal decency.
I give you complete respect in this. You are struggling with more than one thing, perhaps, or maybe somebody can refine it to one. You don't want to Choose without first knowing all of the implications of it and, if you already did Choose STO, then why do you not do more in that service?
I won't give a dumb answer, so I won't give any advice at all. I will say that STO is not trying to please anyone. It's seeing their hurt and wanting to ease it. They may not smile at you for trying, but if they do get better or not, at least you tried.
If you think you are too f*cked up to be helpful to anyone and only want to find your way in this catalytic world, then so be it. I will help if I can and at least I see where you are, Ocean.
Maybe you are a Wanderer who went astray in a previous 3D life, so here you are back to recover from that mistake. That would explain your focusing on yourself yet finding the LOO and these forums fascinating. If this resonates, then I'm sure lots of us will have questions.
