is it a cop out to medicate?

[Oceania]

it's not a conscious choice. i think calling it a choice when someone conscioioisly doesn't want to be sad is fawlty. maybe subconsciously we find comfort in sadness because at least you don't expect to fall from a pit, it's still not the preferred thing. to me, i'm so used to having problems that to not have them scares me because the higher you climb the harder you fall. and i think it's not unreasonable to feel that way.