Greetings with love, pain and sadness

[Zygra]

Welcome Zygra! It is lovely to see you here.

It sounds like you have a lot of built up anger towards the world, as many of us do. I don't know if it will help, but I found for myself that I needed to find a way to forgive people for their nature, just as I have begun learning to forgive myself for my own. The world is always going to cause pain, that's what it does, that's why we are here. People are always going to cause pain, mostly because they don't know any other way. They are on their path as you and I are on ours. Often our paths aren't compatible, and in that case I break that link and remove myself from their path so that they are not interfering with mine. As Ra says though, there are no mistakes in the Law of One. You will find your way, and coming here is a great step towards that!

Love

Anger. Yes I could tell you all about anger. The story would be neverending and it would not bring much of possitive vibrations. I once asked my shadow self tomeditated with me for the goal to bring forth all memories that was causing all this rage. I had to stop without finishing the meditation as seamingly endless amounts of negative memories surfaced. There were just so many experiences of anger. It was very painfull but with time and patience I have worked many of them off.

As The lessons and catalysts are experienced and learned the pain caused by them dissapear as well as it is no longer needed. Ignoring the pain will increase it till it can no longer be ignored or it kills you. The pain is trying to wake you and keep you awoken.

I too have broken many chains with people around me. Some out of really bad relations and some because I could no longer help thoose people and we were just in each others way.

Life for hypersensitives is tough. There have been so many times I've wondered why I chose to be able to see and feel these things. I asked Quo about it once and they said that, in general, people with such extreme sensitivities came here to do specific work of a spiritual nature...channeling, counseling and the like. Having such an enormous openness leaves us vulnerable to negative vibrations, but it also allows us to communicate with the other side, and to pull wisdom through to share with people. By our very experiences we are the unwitting teachers of this world.

We made a big sacrifice holding a place of light in these sensitive, fragile bodies. It must have taken great strength and determination and a great desire to serve to come here in the first place.

Such abilities can be brought under control and used to help many people. Take heart in the fact that there is always hope, and you are not alone.

I searched for a long time why I was so different and sensitive. Eventually I came over numerology that explained it and I have since accepted it as truth. In numerology there are numbers based on name and birth date. They range from 1 to 9 and tell alot about our initial programming, strengths, weaknesses and types of experiences that we are going to meet during our incarnation. The life path (based on birth date) number 2 is the most sensitive of the common numbers. Then there are "master" numbers. 11 and 22 (there are more depending on what type of numerology philosophy you read) which are both higher vibrations of their common number. 11 is the higher vibration of 2 and 22 is the higher vibration of 4. 11s are more sensitive then typical 2s (therefore hypersensitive) which is bad enough.

Im according to numerology an 11 and im born on the same date as prince William(the guy the got married recently). So here we live in 3D world that are generally very intense and hard. Earth particulary is even more hardcore. Its the "you asked for it" level. It is out of all the 3D worlds possibly the hardest. Combine that with the difficulty of nr 11 programming with all its difficulties and you got youself a an experience that ecos around the whole multiverse. I guess that I have gotten addicted to the thrills and chills of this place.

forgive, forgive, forgive
they know not what they do
i am glad you have found your way here and welcome you most warmly, but i hope you have more joy in your experience of 3d life than your post suggests
3d life can be so beautiful, look for the love and the light and the beauty

I forgive most but not all. There are things and happenings that I could never accept around me. I will need healing once im done here.

Continuing a little on the hypersensitive thing, my understanding now is that we (hyper sensitives) are like sponges, absorbing all energy around us, especially the negative stuff. I think the point of forgiving is not so much for the other person (although its beneficial to all) but it lets the negative energy dissipate so we don't hold onto it anymore.

I also remember the part in the Law of One where the negative forces had started attacking Carla, and don had been projecting love at them, and the Ra group found it funny because they said that is just the way to deal with entities who project negativity onto you. Project positivity back and it displaces their polarity, thus neutralizing it. its something I keep in mind now in social situations.

Yes and the funny thing is that its mostly automatic. I dont do it counciously.

it is hard to be sensitive, sometimes i wonder how i can ever be helpful if i just hide from people.

You are not in that case. That one reason why we are brothers and sisters of sadness. I too have many times considered of moving to a secluded part of the country away from people. I have choosen not to in service to others and myself.

If you're good at visualization, it is a strong defense against incoming energies. Just visualize a shield around yourself. I have a rather complex visualization I do, but simply seeing a barrier or white light can help greatly.

I too have a very strong barrier. My grandfather died a year ago. He supposedly tried to contact me from the other side but couldnt get trough the barrier. So he went to the dreams of a close friend of mine and asked him to give his regards to me. I am glad that the shield actually works. My grandfather lived a good life and might have passed the 51 % requirement for ascension. If so I am glad. He too was an 11.

You can also make a spear of light. Spears are not made for defense.

My short tale is a mixed bag. Since childhood I have been hypersensitive to my enviroment and my inner forces. I rembember starting out as a very happy child. I spread love around me very naturally, was very honest (stupidly honest) and was rarely mean.

Sounds very familiar to me. Same as:

This world is a place of constant conflict. I was tought to avoid problems and defer to grownups. One became sheep as a child for the wolfs to feast on. More like psychic vampires then wolfs. No lesson was ever tought to stand for oneself. To love oneself. To lead oneself. What was tought was to do as one was told. Obedience. That instead of being tought to confront problems one avoids them.

No one in my familly bothered to prepair me for the cruel reality of this place and so I was overprotected and unprepaired. During my naive and gullible years of ignorance I experienced the foul corruption of the people here. Teachers, "friends", familly, the zombies on the street. Rotten seemingly to the core, deceitfull, dominant, greed as god, cowardice. The list could go on forever as well as my negative story of accumulated garbage and anger.

Again, you sort of write my story.
Welcome to the forum! I am looking forward to read more of you.

Thank you everyone for the welcomes and love that you have sent. They have done more good then I at first thought or wanted to realize.