Regression session

[Ankh]

Apparently there is some catalyst here.

Whether we pick our lifes to summarize our deepest spiritual growth, or the fact that this colourful and very emotional picture that I had is just a symbolic picture that summarises this current life, or if it really happened, either way – it summarize pretty clear the most important, present lessons. I cannot, still, accept the love and complete, unconditional understanding and total embracement from my social memory complex. I am not there yet. And I cannot live in the present moment, to ground myself. Unfortunately.

The most vivid of these was the memories I came into this lifetime with. I'd died in a dungeon in my last life, and those memories were particularly vivid and painful. But because they were so near to the surface, I had to work thru them.

There was one time when I was on a vacation trip in Germany and we made a tourist visit to a dungeon. I had such a severe anxiety attack after that, that I had to drink myself drunk in order to handle the vibrations. It was long time ago, but I still remember it.

The memories that surfaced spontaneously during meditation were the most powerful of all, because they surfaced just at the right time! For example, when I was literally crying out with all my heart and soul, seeking healing between me and another person, I suddenly received an intense vision of what happened between us in another lifetime, accompanied by intense emotional pain and the memory of physical pain, as I lay dying after a violent confrontation with this person.

*shocking eyes* Thank you for the tip!! I will use it from now on!

There was no way I imagined that. It was every bit as real as any memory from this lifetime!

I don't know what to think about what I saw and felt. It was not something I feel when I remember something from this life, but I was not human either. But it was more intense than anything I've experienced in this life... On the other hand, being skeptic all my life I wonder about the "authenticity" of the experience.

I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with seeking answers by engaging in such sessions. But, when working with a practitioner, there is an element of potential distortion that might enter the scene. And, depending on your state of mind, expectations, vibration in the therapy room (might still have some residue from the last session, etc.), the therapist's own possible distortions, anxiety about the session, etc. - any or all of that can affect the purity of the transmission.

He is a Wanderer, although of different vibration than I, but he has been working with this for 6 years and seemed to be a very caring and loving soul. We were in my house, in the bedroom.

If they did, then you would resonate with them and be able to process them and heal them.

I did resonate with the pain... I was trying to heal it in higher densities, but it took too much time... So here I am...

In other words, I suggest asking yourself if these particular memories have value for you in the here and now. If they do, by explaining some situation or discord, then wonderful! Accept them and process them.

Yes, they have. But it's not that easy to accept and process...

I'm just sharing my own personal experiences, in case any of it might be useful to you, as you process this experience.

Hugs and Blessings to you! Be gentle with yourself.

I don't have many to talk about this deep spiritual stuff in my surroundings, if any at all. Sometimes it looks like I am surrounded by Wanderers by none of them is fully awake. So sometimes maybe I come across as I talk too much, I don't know. But it is probably because of the fact that I've experienced many catalysts that made to wake up... I don't know.

However, I would like you all to know that you are my light and love, a true spiritual family that I've been looking for, for such a long time! And now, I finally found you! And see... how beautiful you all are, sparkling like jewels! Thank you!!!

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Heck, if I can forgive myself for being in Orion and torturing people for fun, I think there might be hope for you yet, young padawan.

Accept the difficult path is the a choice of the padawan.