05-04-2011, 05:11 PM
(05-04-2011, 12:58 PM)Icaro Wrote: This is all very confusing..I can imagine it's very hard for you right now. It's possible that you have had a mixed polarity path in the past. This would mean your higher self has an intimate viewpoint to offer in regards to your current lifetime and frame of mind. It is going to tell you the truth, and not necessarily what you want to hear.
It's also possible that you weren't channeling your higher self at all, and a negative entity came in. You are very sympathetic in trying to understand the nature of the negative path, and you are loving towards those beings. You were also very vulnerable and not necessarily guarded in the information you were seeking. Being a wanderer who is on the positive path devoted to the Law of One, and given your negative past in this lifetime, you could have simply been the victim of cleverness trying to manipulate you in the wrong direction. Perhaps you don't have a negative history at all, and given your experiences this lifetime, you are simply vulnerable to being led to doubt yourself and your loving nature.
One thing that is certain though is that you are definitely a positive loving being here and now. I would focus on love and moving closer towards it. Ultimately the session doesn't matter in that it has no bearing on your current state of being!
Ankh, I am just now reading this thread. Wow, what an intense experience!
Apparently there is some catalyst here.
But I was just thinking exactly what Icaro just suggested. And then I read Icaro saying what I was thinking!
I've had several past life sessions with various practitioners, using various methods to access the memories. Several were with psychics who supposedly read my lifetimes from the Akashic records. In those cases, I felt nothing. Zero. Zip. Nada. Were they accurate? I'll never know, because the readings did nothing for me. I just didn't feel anything; nor did they satisfy anything intellectually.
Then I had a session with someone who used acupuncture to access the memories. This put me in an altered state and I basically just told him the images I was seeing. In this case, lots of jumbled, chaotic images from traumatic lifetimes surfaced.
I trusted this method more than the one with the psychics because I was the one who had the visions. However, the lifetimes that surfaced seemed forced, as though I were digging in the dirt; actually looking for icky stuff.
In contrast, I have also had past life memories surface spontaneously or while meditating for someone or while seeking clarity on a particular issue.
The most vivid of these was the memories I came into this lifetime with. I'd died in a dungeon in my last life, and those memories were particularly vivid and painful. But because they were so near to the surface, I had to work thru them.
The memories that surfaced spontaneously during meditation were the most powerful of all, because they surfaced just at the right time! For example, when I was literally crying out with all my heart and soul, seeking healing between me and another person, I suddenly received an intense vision of what happened between us in another lifetime, accompanied by intense emotional pain and the memory of physical pain, as I lay dying after a violent confrontation with this person.
There was no way I imagined that. It was every bit as real as any memory from this lifetime!
This has happened to me a number of times. Sometimes it's just a snippet. It's not always as intense as remembering getting murdered (or murdering). But in every case, there was a crystal clear certainty that what I was seeing was authentic, whereas the experiences with the psychics and with the acupuncturist left me doubting and confused. My conclusion was that, in those cases, the past life memories were extracted, regardless of whether I was ready to face them or not, thus facilitating unnecessary guilt and trauma which might have been better to leave buried. Whereas, when it happened spontaneously, I was ready to process them and heal them.
I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with seeking answers by engaging in such sessions. But, when working with a practitioner, there is an element of potential distortion that might enter the scene. And, depending on your state of mind, expectations, vibration in the therapy room (might still have some residue from the last session, etc.), the therapist's own possible distortions, anxiety about the session, etc. - any or all of that can affect the purity of the transmission.
Thus, my suggestion would be to accept that which is useful - ie. healing, comforting or clarifying - and discard that which brings forth pain. Some of those painful memories might not need to surface. If they did, then you would resonate with them and be able to process them and heal them. When I remembered being murdered, I was already in the throes of a horrible situation with that person. So it was appropriate that such a memory would surface, because it explained so much! But what if such a memory surfaces about someone I was currently in a harmonious relationship with? If that had happened, then it might have stirred up old pain for nothing.
In other words, I suggest asking yourself if these particular memories have value for you in the here and now. If they do, by explaining some situation or discord, then wonderful! Accept them and process them.
BUT, if they don't really seem to explain anything, but just add confusion, then I would suggest putting them on a shelf for future reference, or even discarding completely.
The Truth should set us free, not add to our confusion and pain. (Though we might feel pain temporarily as we process it...but the pain is in the resistance, not in the Truth itself. Ultimately Truth should be liberating.)
I'm just sharing my own personal experiences, in case any of it might be useful to you, as you process this experience.
Hugs and Blessings to you! Be gentle with yourself.