Regression session

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Ok, what happened yesterday? I don't know. I am very puzzled, but I'll tell broadly.

I was in some kind of alternative state of consciousness, but I was still very aware and conscious all the time. It was like a different state of mind that sometimes happens when you meditate. You are still aware of surroundigs and can easily bring yourself back from that state.

I have been a skeptic all my life, and the only thing that I really believe in is the Law of One. So in the beginning, a part of my mind was naturally very concerned about the "truth" in what was happening.

I saw pictures, none of them were human. What I saw was like a movie, a vision. But there was no feelings or emotions you get as you would get reviewing a memory from this lifetime in your mind. Nevertheless, each vision brought feelings. In the middle of this reviewing we came to the most important picture. I "gave in" to the emotions and felt tears running down my physical face. That I saw, affected me very much, but still, there was no feelings or emotions I feel when I review memories from this life, for instance.

Then we came to the part where Higher Self enters to answer the questions. I don't know who or what that thing was, but it was not the Higher Self I have experienced this far. There was no love and no intimate relationship. That thing looked down at me, and I was still very conscious. I had almost no own thoughts at that point, and was channeling this thing's thoughts. I spoke of myself in "she" form. It could also have been a shadow part of myself, I don't know. Whatever or whoever it was, it was not the Higher Self that I've come to know. That thing was not trying to hurt me or misslead me, I felt it very clear. It was pointing into the direction that I had to take which is love, but whatever it was, it was cold and clever.

Afterwards the therapist said that the energies was very high and of very low vibration during this session. He felt on several occassions burdensome and tired. A low vibrational frequency/sound was also recorded and you could hear it very clearly listening to the session.

I was very affected from what came out from this session. It was a completely different angle of viewing and seeing this life and all of that which is inside of me. I did not expected it at all. I felt very emotional and shocked and extremely sensitive. It was like I could feel all the emotions at once in my inner core. Something was gone, something that protects us from ourselves. I have a feeling that it was confusion that was gone. I could see two different paths leading to the same place. One was this path, that I saw yesterday, and there other one was love.

What happened later was also strange. My family came home, but I was not "myself". I was still standing at some kind of crossroad seeing those two paths very clear, but not walking any of them. I wanted to take the love path, but was still very affected by the session. It felt like I had no strength of taking the love path yet. I was deep down in sorrow from what I saw and felt during the session. There were times when I got completely angry at my husband but I felt deep love. And there were times where I felt deep love towards my daughter, but could not bring it out, and instead uncontrollably shouted at her to stop doing whatever childlish and mischievous thing she was doing. It was not that bad as it sounds, but it felt like I was hurting myself. I felt love and wanted to give in, but could not manage myself to do that, like I had no power or strength to do that.

What the %&/("#%¤&% happened??? I am very puzzled.