04-12-2011, 06:15 PM
Lol...I AM satisfied with my sex life with Walter. I'll just say that we see to each other's needs in every way possible. 
The thing is, we've both at times felt like sex wasn't enough, even when we've had green and blue ray sex. We held each other as tight as we could, like we were just trying to become one being. We were both on the verge of crying, it was so intense. There was something between us, some invisible force making every atom of our bodies come alive with electricity, but for the life of us we couldn't find a way to express it. It was like seeing a glittering gem but being a few centimeters too far away to grasp it. Sometimes kissing seems to come closer to it than sex, because you're sharing breath...you're literally exchanging each other's life force.
He's been forced to work insane hours lately so we barely see each other at all, but I suppose it makes the time we DO find to be with each other even more precious. Over the past few months the massive stress we've been under has pulled us closer together when it would probably tear most couples apart. I see the fact that he is my husband as an aside...a legal quirk that I tolerate because of our culture. He is my life partner...the one whose footsteps walk closest to mine. He understands me on a level no other has come close to reaching, without even trying. I am infinitely blessed to have found him.
Ocean, your last post reminded me of when I was little. My babysitter had this old truck in her backyard with a blue tarp thrown over it. I would sit there and stare in wonder at that tarp. I was in awe at the blueness of it. My mom would be like "What? It's just a tarp." And I would be like "It's BLUE!" Lol.
The thing is, we've both at times felt like sex wasn't enough, even when we've had green and blue ray sex. We held each other as tight as we could, like we were just trying to become one being. We were both on the verge of crying, it was so intense. There was something between us, some invisible force making every atom of our bodies come alive with electricity, but for the life of us we couldn't find a way to express it. It was like seeing a glittering gem but being a few centimeters too far away to grasp it. Sometimes kissing seems to come closer to it than sex, because you're sharing breath...you're literally exchanging each other's life force.
He's been forced to work insane hours lately so we barely see each other at all, but I suppose it makes the time we DO find to be with each other even more precious. Over the past few months the massive stress we've been under has pulled us closer together when it would probably tear most couples apart. I see the fact that he is my husband as an aside...a legal quirk that I tolerate because of our culture. He is my life partner...the one whose footsteps walk closest to mine. He understands me on a level no other has come close to reaching, without even trying. I am infinitely blessed to have found him.
Ocean, your last post reminded me of when I was little. My babysitter had this old truck in her backyard with a blue tarp thrown over it. I would sit there and stare in wonder at that tarp. I was in awe at the blueness of it. My mom would be like "What? It's just a tarp." And I would be like "It's BLUE!" Lol.