Sexual Revolution

[Brittany]

I've been having a lot of thoughts about the gay/lesbian issue lately. For the most part, I would consider myself bisexual, though since I'm married to a dude that pretty much makes me straight by default. I've had some intense relationships with other women in my dreams, and I've had fantasies about it in waking life. I've even fantasized guyXguy relationships, even though I really couldn't be a gay man in this life if I tried.

I know Ra said homosexuality has a lot to do with a person being one gender frequently in past lives, then suddenly being the other one. When they are surrounded by people, it is easy to get confused. Still, in my reasoning, as love continues to grow and expand, I would think that gender would become meaningless. I mean, eventually we outgrow gender altogether. Could two men or two women produce the same kind of energy exchange as a man and woman together?

I've also found myself having a hard time distinguishing between types of love...or I suppose types of energy would be more appropriate. I've found myself having sexual feelings toward all kinds of people...all ages and genders...people I don't even know. Now that I'm able to detect a person's energy signature, it only seems natural to share energy.

I don't think of these people in the same way I think of my husband, who I want to be my partner for life, but it is definite sexual energy. It feels like the whole universe is just one big orgy of love...why should we be ashamed of that? I feel these feelings welling up inside of me that have no words. Sex doesn't express them adequately, but it's the closest I've been able to come, and it feels very similar to sexual arousal. Has anyone else felt things like this?