04-07-2011, 11:26 PM
Aaron, do you think that's possible to do?
i walked past some granny today and i didn't even smile at her, and i thought, maybe i should have smiled at her. would it have made a difference in her day? i'm usually in survival mode so i don't smile at anybody really, i don't even know how to. nor do i look people in the eye. my eyes automatically go away if i do, and i think it puts people off but i can't help it. i find it terrifying to look people in the eye. cuz you see them and they see you and it's so weird. it like shocks me somehow. it's too intimate. i mean i can manage briefly in conversation but it's really hard. especially when my eyes go automatically off the eyes.
i walked past some granny today and i didn't even smile at her, and i thought, maybe i should have smiled at her. would it have made a difference in her day? i'm usually in survival mode so i don't smile at anybody really, i don't even know how to. nor do i look people in the eye. my eyes automatically go away if i do, and i think it puts people off but i can't help it. i find it terrifying to look people in the eye. cuz you see them and they see you and it's so weird. it like shocks me somehow. it's too intimate. i mean i can manage briefly in conversation but it's really hard. especially when my eyes go automatically off the eyes.