intense feelings of homesickness

[Ankh]

Confused, your last post is very interesting. So Confederation contacts an entity of home like vibration in order to awake the entity. The Orion group contacts the entity in order to give message of doom and separation. Now we've been contacted and are awake and seeking. Still there come heavy feelings of homesickness and longning and missing. As this, in my case, one of my weakiest spots - I wonder if I am a subject then to Orion thought projection? One side of these emotions - it hurts, one wants to go home and there is feeling of separation. Sometimes I even get scared thinking that what if I don't make the Harvest, and in the mean time they will graduate into the next density, I will not, and will therefore be left behind, and in that case I will never see my brothers and sisters again. Obviously,these thoughts are not slightest positive. So it might be Orion projection, and they don't have to do much in my case, just push some buttons - and I am doing the rest myself. This is good to become aware of! Then we have the other side of these heavy emotions - love, like being around them, like they are here, just I can't see them, and I see the light in the horizon so to speak. But it feels like I should do something with these emotions, use them for the greater good so to speak. I am awake and seeking, but still these emotions come. It is probably so for several reasons. And I don't understand the message they are trying to give. But I should work with it, try to transform them into something useful, positive. But the hardest part is to stop being selfabsorbed and dwell in selfpitying when it comes as it is a normal, human reaction when one being away and remembers home. I read a text once that I edited and it goes like this: "We are all connected no matter how far we may be."