intense feelings of homesickness

[Ankh]

in the same way that we look back on teenage angst, passion and drama with fondness and wry amusement once we hit our 30s or 40s, similarly our experience of 3d suffering is likey to change as our perspective changes as we move into larger life

I experienced something in meditation today. As I thought of the totality in 7D when it looks back before merging with the Source I wondered how this totality of one body/mind/spirit complex would be. Would it have any blockages for instance? Of course not! It is perfect! So I looked back at this Lesser self where this totality's focus is right now and thought of the orange blockage I am struggling with every day and the meaning of it - and one memory floated on the surface on my consciousness. Before age of 7 I had no such blockage, it was clear all the way up through the nexis. Therefore when I met people I wasn't afraid to be hurt or dismissed. I was loving and trusting. And when I met someone who didn't want it I just stood by their side waiting for them to open up and when they did I reached out in compassion. So why did I have to go through this whole drama later only to develop the orange ray blockage? There are loads of reasons for it, but one of them because it's a gift. We are eternal, perfect Beings and this is how we know it. That which we not appreciate right now, that which we whine about and dislike are gifts from our One Infinite Creator. It's hard to explain everything that I realised in words and in this limited space, but that's how I saw all the suffering, blockages, pain and drama - a precious gift.