03-27-2011, 05:13 PM
(03-26-2011, 12:43 PM)zenmaster Wrote:(03-26-2011, 09:59 AM)Confused Wrote: Where is home?
It seems it's their idea of somewhere they perceive they'd feel more comfortable or compatible. I've heard many, many whiny complaints about one's circumstances - being that of a prison, or what not, over the years. I think some people throw the concept of service out the window and desire certain regressive comforts or atmosphere that makes them feel more congruent with themselves. It's a thoroughly '3D'-identifying mindset.
First I got surprised when I saw the above post but then when I saw it was you, it was like: "aah it's only zen".
My buttons were not pushed by it as I actually agree with you regarding my personal experience. I have noticed that homesickness dissables me to fully functioning in being in service. When I am attacked by it I dwell in self pitying and get too self absorbed. However I see that as a personal lesson and I am working on it, but it does give me guilt in dwelling in this state, because as I said I don't perform 100% when it happens. The reason to this reply is geniune curiosity for how humans function. If we speak of myself here I would never dare to post something like this, zen, as I would assume that it would hurt others self, therefore I am genuinely, really curious and nothing else in what moved you to post this? What was the drive behind your post?