03-11-2022, 02:43 PM
Hi everyone,
I realise this isn't a place to unload emotions, or maybe it is but that isn't my way of doing things.
But I could do with some advice...
My mother passed away late 2020, and I'm really struggling to cope ever since. Everything has lost its purpose, everything feels so meaningless and I feel so detached from everything and everyone. It's like the world is going on without me. I realise this is part of my spiritual path, that I am wanderer who chose enormous catalyst, that this is also the hardest catalyst I have ever gone through or had to process. The day she passed away there was an underlying sense of perfection about it, and my guides prepared me two days before hand as I kept having the repeated clear thought "you're fully equipped for what's about to happen next". At the time I was like "what the f**k, fully equipped for what?", Then I soon got to realise what they meant.
I'm letting go in life, I have placed my will in the hands of the creator, there's slight occasions where the cracks in the ego appear and I can see brightness in the future and feel good for all of a few seconds. But for the most part, I feel I have lost my best friend in my mom, someone I loved so deeply and had such a heartfelt connection with...
I know I'm not the only one who has ever gone through this, nor do I feel like it either, but it's my first big loss in life. How does one move on and find meaning again? How did you guys cope after losing a loved one? How does one express themselves when you feel those around you don't know what you're going through?
I would really appreciate your thoughts on this and it would help me a lot. My guides and my higher self have gone very quiet through all of this, and I think I get it, they don't need to give me guidance or spur me on with purpose as I just need to heal and rest in being for the time being. Your advice would really mean a lot though
p.s I know the soul and essence of who my mom was goes on, that she has not disappeared forever, this helps but the pain and anguish still remains nonetheless.
I realise this isn't a place to unload emotions, or maybe it is but that isn't my way of doing things.
But I could do with some advice...
My mother passed away late 2020, and I'm really struggling to cope ever since. Everything has lost its purpose, everything feels so meaningless and I feel so detached from everything and everyone. It's like the world is going on without me. I realise this is part of my spiritual path, that I am wanderer who chose enormous catalyst, that this is also the hardest catalyst I have ever gone through or had to process. The day she passed away there was an underlying sense of perfection about it, and my guides prepared me two days before hand as I kept having the repeated clear thought "you're fully equipped for what's about to happen next". At the time I was like "what the f**k, fully equipped for what?", Then I soon got to realise what they meant.
I'm letting go in life, I have placed my will in the hands of the creator, there's slight occasions where the cracks in the ego appear and I can see brightness in the future and feel good for all of a few seconds. But for the most part, I feel I have lost my best friend in my mom, someone I loved so deeply and had such a heartfelt connection with...
I know I'm not the only one who has ever gone through this, nor do I feel like it either, but it's my first big loss in life. How does one move on and find meaning again? How did you guys cope after losing a loved one? How does one express themselves when you feel those around you don't know what you're going through?
I would really appreciate your thoughts on this and it would help me a lot. My guides and my higher self have gone very quiet through all of this, and I think I get it, they don't need to give me guidance or spur me on with purpose as I just need to heal and rest in being for the time being. Your advice would really mean a lot though
p.s I know the soul and essence of who my mom was goes on, that she has not disappeared forever, this helps but the pain and anguish still remains nonetheless.
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