Like a misplaced puzzle piece

[sillypumpkins]

Here is another way to to see this. What about it being a good thing that one doesn't fit in? I say this because I have never wanted to fit in. Maybe it's because I am a bit of a rebel. Loving your own uniqueness is a strength. Loving the idea that you are not like everyone else, and that may be in very significant ways, is a cause to celebrate in my book, and you are in the company of so many others who are (and were) unique here and didn't fit in—people like Nikola Tesla and Vincent Van Gogh and every person who thought outside the box.

I've been thinking about this a lot today, and I even brought it up with my friend today too.

I feel like you Diana, like a rebel. I don't want to fit in to society. I don't want to work in a cubicle, I don't want to wear trendy clothes, or drive like a really nice car. I do feel that, and yet, what I'm speaking of doesn't seem to have anything to do with any of that. Maybe?

Perhaps, I'm not looking to "fit in" in the traditional sense, but I might be looking for connection, is what I've deduced today. Maybe they're intimately related, I don't know. 

I want to be heard and understood by others and yet... how can one be understood by others if they don't understand themselves? That's where my thought process goes. It always leads back to the relationship I have with my self. I look for connection in others and yet.... I feel devastatingly disconnected from myself. There seems to be a relationship there. 

Thanks Diana 

Silly, I Hope you don’t back pedal too much in the future. If by chance  I see something I typed years ago and even if at the time it sounded cagey, when I read it today, I kind of think what was I smoking, this is not bad at all after all.  . We are so hard on what we feel and think.  So, mmm, don’t backpedal toooften.

 
Lol, flo, I typed up by response to Diana up above and I soooo wanted to delete most of it. But after reading your post, I didn't. It's hard but I didn't.

And "what was I smoking" lol. That got a laugh out of me :p. Thanks flo