Knowing Yourself.....in earnest

[Steppingfeet]

In doing metaphysical work you need to find your center. You need to find what you are living for and what you would die for.

We read this whole passage recently in my study group. The bolded above is the only part I don't line up with. I free this sort of perspective tends toward the martyrdom Ra speaks of. (Oh dear, I've ended two sentences with a preposition. .)

It could lead the practitioner to martyrdom I suppose. I think that in finding that for which one would die, Carla was encouraging the instrument to find that key value, that which was the utmost importance to the self. It is not to say necessarily that one wants to die for any particular purpose, or that one will seek out such end, just that, when push comes to shove, what principle is so important to the self that, rather than betray or compromise this core value, central as it is to the integrity of self, one would release the incarnation. Death for something is the ultimate declaration in our third-density situation of that which is most important to us.

In other words, it it something of a filter or metric for finding our core value(s) and vibration(s).

And as Carla is the best most masterful channel we have yet known, building these protocols as she did, I'm inclined to follow her lead, though martyrdom is not my path, I don't think.

And English sentences can end with prepositions! Latin cannot, and it was some dudes a couple/few hundreds years ago who set the prohibition on ending with prepositions because they transposed Latinate rules onto English (much to the consternation of generations of school children). Though a sentence can sound classier at times if ending in a preposition it does not. : )

This certitude that arises not from the acquisition of knowledge or the demonstration of competency at some task, but of the authentic contact with the true self, this is a power unto itself.

I very much agree with this, based on my own experience since I was old enough to be aware of thoughts that can be expressed in words (hence, memories one can access; it is quite difficult to access pre-language memories). There is nothing wrong with the word power. I have always known I was a powerful being, and that all possibilities were open to me. This knowing, when I look back at childhood, helped me in every circumstance to withstand the challenges of this life.

It sounds like this awareness has stood you in good stead! It's also perhaps granted you a measure of independence from the influence of others. I did not hold this awareness as a child and, while my own self to a degree, I was also very much pushed and pulled by the whims of others.


There is negative and positive power; power for negative uses and power for positive uses.

50.6 Ra: The negatively oriented being will be one who feels that it has found power that gives meaning to its existence precisely as the positive polarization does feel.

In fact, polarity is power. And it is a balanced view of power which sees that no device on Earth, no mind/body/spirit complex, and indeed no process in the universe moves without power.

Is it harnessed? Is it used for polarizing and evolving? Or is the entity without power and "helpless" for lack of making the Choice?

19.18 Ra: The further an entity has, what you would call, polarized, the more easily this entity may change polarity, for the more power and awareness the entity will have. Those truly helpless are those who have not consciously chosen but who repeat patterns without knowledge of the repetition or the meaning of the pattern.

And I will add to it my favorite quote of Gandalf's:

“I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo.

"So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

This line of Gandalf's I feel lines up perfectly with a Wanderer's purpose. Not to fix things here (that is not to say a Wanderer can't wish things were better), but to utilize one's uniqueness in service to this world (and that would be true of the STO or the STS path), and to try to move forward in that service no matter how difficult it is here. And the perspective of the observer, or eternal self, coupled with the usefulness of the self which is acting here (the Significator[s]), is a good balance to achieve in that effort.

Both the quote and your interpretation are great, thank you. For me, the quote, especially the bolded part, encourages a relaxation and surrender of the resistance or rejection of the hard circumstance that arise in anyone's life. There is always a part that says "No, I don't want this." or "No, this is uncomfortable/painful/too difficult," etc. Certainly we must be sensitive to the friction that arises when we are not in alignment with our integrity, or in a circumstance which would be best to exit, but so often the catalyst of our growth, the catalyst which we called into being and/or generated ourselves, unconscious tho the process may be, is resisted.

So the bolded part speaks to me of the necessity of facing the challenges before one.

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Outer planes?  Do you mean inner planes?

Confederation sources are outer planes contact, thus the necessity for a minimum of three people to achieve and safely sustain the universal contact. Inner planes, in the terminology and understanding of L/L Research channeling, can be safely undertaken alone. It consists of the higher self, one's personal guidance system, angels, discarnate third-density entities, etc.

Yes, to keep the contact clean, one should keep at bay those who would distort it for selfish purposes.  My point is that this is not a form of power, per se, but a point of integrity.  Again, this is fine point which would likely not resonate with many.  I feel it is quite important because to see it as an act of power invites personal distortion towards egotism.  Integrity does not equate with egotism in my view, Gandalf story or no Gandalf story.

I have trouble understanding that it is "not a form of power." It is literally a power.

However, if you mean that to frame it strictly as a story of power could invite egotism, sure. If one is seeing such a moment as "You should have seen me! I flexed my muscle, did a round house kick, and the negative entity never stood a chance! I was super badass." then one is working with an inflated sense of self. Same if one dwells on or makes aggrandized identity of their "superior" power.

But as I said: I don't think that this certainty in the self is inimical to the humble nature. It is only the standing upon the bedrock. In this awareness, humility should be natural for the self, for in order to reach this deep interior, the self has disidentified from many of the most superficial of the illusory husks, that which would contribute to inflated personality. And there the self finds strength which, when known in the full integrity of the self, when pure in the whole heart, and when unmitigated by doubt or distraction, becomes unconquerable to the negatively oriented being; this not through any specific training, per se, but by virtue of the qualities inherent in the light of beingness itself.

"Humility should be natural for the self" because one is not identifying as the personality in this place. One has, instead, drilled down to bedrock, to essence, to core vibration, to that principle which is not of the small self, as it were, but which is a property of the greater self.

In that deeper self is, indeed, power. And also love. And wisdom. And integrity. And truth. And the "qualities inherent in the light of beingness itself," not the amazing abilities of the personality shell, is that which creates the boundary against which the negative entity cannot pass.

Though, as the Ra contact demonstrates, additional magical ritual does help.