06-28-2021, 01:53 AM
I would add to what's above that it could be helpful to think of the spiritual lessons you are learning here. First, you're getting an intense and intimate view of what an energy blockage can look like. Tons of energy are being poured into your mother's situation, yet it all goes round and round in circles, never moving upwards towards the heart. The energy applied is being spent, I would guess, on survival concerns and it simply gets burned up without anything productive coming from it. If in your future you see signs of something like this again, you'll have a way of viewing it from what you've experienced here.
Also, there's an element of power vs. love vs. wisdom. Should you use whatever power you have in the service of love when that power is just going right up the chimney? That's a lesson for you to ponder. In this situation, what is the best use of your energy?
It can be hard to think about spiritual growth when your own thoughts and energies are being pulled to the level of personal and family coherence and rectitude. But it's situations like this which can afford you the space to consider the spiritual aspects of your own existence. I would say that your posting about this points to your own own inclination to do this, and I heartily support your efforts to do so.