Left with a feeling of doom

[Black Dragon]

 
I won't copy the whole thing here, but this session has a lot to say about despair.  If the topic really interests you, more can be read here:
https://llresearch.org/transcripts/issue..._0922.aspx

The despair of the mind is an empty thing, full of no virtue except that of self-destruction. Within the mind there are limitations which have been given to the self by the self. Some of these limitations are those called limitations of intelligence. One of the burdens of increased intelligence is an increased capacity for despair.

And what, my friends, is that of which the mind despairs? The mind despairs of its very limitations. In truth there are no limitations—there are only challenges, lessons and glory. Yes, my friends, we say glory, for the stronger the despair, the more glorious the battle which may be waged to outlast the feelings of helplessness, doom and foreboding, uselessness, boredom and disinterest that altogether add up to the definition of despair. The despair of the mind is that which is not, standing in the face of that which is. Therefore the state of mental despair is folly and almost always unproductive. However, the dynamic of despair—that is, midnight as opposed to noon—is available to everyone, every spirit that lives in mind and body in your illusion at some time within the incarnation. Therefore, although it is useless, it is a common experience. In the grand scheme, the very uselessness of despair is that which limits man’s ability to feel it. It is, rather, a dynamic against which one plays out one’s incarnation, the other dynamic being pure joy. It is between those two poles that one may analyze one’s true position with regard to the learning of the one great original Thought of love.

Therefore, that which is useless is rather a constant, an undertone within the life experience, always available, in which the mind knows nothing. Mental joy is the opposing dynamic in which the mind knows all. These are the limits within your illusion of that which we call love.
The despair of the body is a reflection of the despair of the mind. When an entity is in possession of mental despair and has not moved from that dynamic into a productive mode of thinking, analyzing, feeling and acting, that despair becomes incorporated within the body complex. Thence comes disease and ultimately death. Therefore, the wages of continued despair are the death of the body and therefore the death of the intelligence which informs the body. There you have form and function, form, as always, following function.

Spiritual despair, on the other hand, is an absolute necessity. It is, rather than being a zero, a moving dynamic within that which informs the growth and evolution of spirit. It is only metaphysical despair, that is, the recognition that one knows nothing, that one has lost control of everything, and that one is faced with complete darkness of soul which forces that great sliver or portion of the one Creator which is your consciousness to turn, transform, and begin the new; not having left behind that which is old in the soul, but adding unto it, accreting more wisdom, more compassion, and more and more of a feeling of unity which one can receive only when one has become desperate enough to release oneself from the expectation of any knowledge whatsoever.

 

In brief, if you're depressed, it might be because you're intelligent.  But you're still not smart enough to know that all the mental gyrations you can possible spin out won't get you off the starting line because you actually don't know enough to know that you don't know anything useful......beyond how to post stuff on an internet forum.  The mental approach (the blah, blah, blah) is folly because meaningful satisfaction does not enter through the mind....regardless of how satisfying it may feel to rant like this!

I hope this helps.

   
PS: It's funny to note that my style of humour is very seldom contagious.

  

Those "metal gyrations" might be a fine stepping stone. How long it will take for a given soul to use them as such rather than getting stuck in loops, well, that's up to a lot of factors not the least of which is free will.

It's not so much that the mind can't be involved in, or integrated with the higher faculties, and thus "meaningful satisfaction" ...it's just so often in this veiled experience we are having, the mind is seen as separate or superior from the faculties that should guide it. Or for some individuals they aren't even aware of the existence of those higher faculties at all. They think they are simply a product of logic and instinct.

The mind is like a vehicle. Let's make it fun and call it a starship. Who's in the captain's chair, one's higher divine faculties, or one's ego and brain stem instinct?