Depression and Accepting or Resisting Futility

[Sacred Fool]

 
Wonderful quotation above, Dtris.  But it brings up a challenge which, it seems to this observer, you have now taken on the responsibility to solve.

In order to dive into the heart of your being and accept yourself in all your imperfections, you need to have access to your own green ray energy, right?  Isn't it the radiance of the heart's love which transmutes sorrow into love?

Well, if you are seeking on such a level that all you can see are your own shortcomings and failures, then you are seeking--if you will--below the waterline, below the level where you can breathe in that fresh air of self-love, self-acceptance and appreciation for all that is.

So, how can one unite with the heart's love while one is still underwater?  As stated above, this seems to be a crucial inherent challenge here, don't you think?
    

Therefore, rejoice in the feelings which surge within your being, and see therefore the other side of the illusion which is the truth of your own perfection, your oneness, and the love/light that dwells with you. Attempt then, in your waking hours to continue the feeling you develop in your meditations so that a new light is shed on the experiences which you encounter. Do not forget you can have it an illusion. Do not forget it has but one purpose, to teach that you are whole, and perfect, acceptable, and loved.

How can one tune into the part of self which knows its own perfection when one is not seeking on that level?