Respecting other's free will

[sillypumpkins]

to all of you: THANK YOU!!!!! all of the replies have been monumentally helpful for me at this time

this relationship has been a constant throughout my life and has only recently (in the last 5 years) become quite "catalytic"..... in other words, the last 5 years have been very confusing and painful!! (for both of us, might I add)

i am beginning to see now, that my brother has his own lessons on this planet. and i can see how hard it is for him to be here, as it can be for me too. so..... even in the midst of what I used to subtly recognize as "ugly behavior," (i.e, name-calling, yelling, throwing things, screaming, gaslighting, etc), i'm beginning to see beauty in him

especially in terms of my brother reflecting me back on to myself.... wow, what a trip that can be!! i suppose i am seeing what a service my brother provides for me, and that trumps all the 3d stuff that comes with it

i don't really have anything i want to say to him anymore really..... i used to get into tizzies in my mind, imaginary conversations and the like. but now.... i am comfortable with the silence. i don't really have anything to say anymore.

anyways, thanks again you guys