"Recall being ill with any disease be it a cold, a flu, cancer, or any illness. Now recall when that illness went away, and now you are back to being your "authentic" self with no "illness" distortions pressing on you. You don't necessarily feel anything now in comparison to being sick, except the true, unencumbered you. You are in your natural state, that of being well and your mind and body working as it should be. There is a release, a reopening of all possibilities, while in comparison, when ill, those possibilities are narrowed down to dealing with the illness.
This is how I see the joy Ra speaks of. It is the return to an unencumbered state, where all possibilities are present. The wave state, as opposed to the particle state. I don't think it is necessarily "joy" for an individual or the source of thei creation, as much as it is being in an authentic, unencumbered state of being. The word "joy" I think trips us up because we as humans have assigned human meaning to it."
One time I got food digestion problems from some broccoli a family member prepared. It was my rest day, and I started taking a nap since I felt lethargic. An hour or so later, I woke up and realized that something was wrong as my energy was being drained at my lower dantien. I didn't want to get up and walk, too much energy use. When I started asking myself questions about it, I soon realized that it was way more serious. I was worried I would have to miss work and need to get my stomach pumped. So I asked for divine help in purging the poisons. Then took a nap for about 30-50 minutes.
When I woke up, I walked to the garbage can and started throwing some stuff up. That was maybe the first time I vomited since very early age and this time I didn't try to stop it. After a few passes, I felt much better, although it took around 2-5 hours before I was completely purified of toxins. By around 8 pm I was ok again.
At the time, my ego mind felt out raged that someone was dangerous enough to endanger us, but my higher self gave me the option of an override. Instead of choosing to feel fear or anger, the reality I had to accept was that the poison was not a threat to me. Not really, once I allowed higher power to purify it. Thus there was no need to get angry at the threat, because there was no threat. The ego was pacified by not suppressing it or ignoring its advice, but by seriously considering whether there are threats and if there are no threats, there is no need to feel anger about anything. At that moment, I felt the vibration of joy and gratitude, because if anybody else had eaten that broccoli, they would be in real trouble. Thus the joy was that I could take the "hit" because I was spiritually tougher than my relative. The vibration then reset back to normal, the joy that surpasses understanding.
The leap of faith into the deep end. It felt very much like a 4.4 initiation test for the heart chakra. Many thoughts from the survival ego chakras I received, such as call for doctors or medicine or something. I chose to rely on my spiritual connection and place my life in the hands of my higher self, aka my god. It wouldn't be the first time nor the last. But that was the last time I was tested that severely for that initiation stage however. I assume I "passed" and thus more was opened to me.
The ego, the lower 3 chakras, was given plenty of evidence that our way was better guided by this power. It had experience and physical proof. Thus there was no conflict as is the case in other selves. The lower 3 chakra ego mind does not understand how it was possible... yet it understands that this power is useful and can be relied upon for survival. It began trusting via faith, in that which is unseen.
This is how I see the joy Ra speaks of. It is the return to an unencumbered state, where all possibilities are present. The wave state, as opposed to the particle state. I don't think it is necessarily "joy" for an individual or the source of thei creation, as much as it is being in an authentic, unencumbered state of being. The word "joy" I think trips us up because we as humans have assigned human meaning to it."
One time I got food digestion problems from some broccoli a family member prepared. It was my rest day, and I started taking a nap since I felt lethargic. An hour or so later, I woke up and realized that something was wrong as my energy was being drained at my lower dantien. I didn't want to get up and walk, too much energy use. When I started asking myself questions about it, I soon realized that it was way more serious. I was worried I would have to miss work and need to get my stomach pumped. So I asked for divine help in purging the poisons. Then took a nap for about 30-50 minutes.
When I woke up, I walked to the garbage can and started throwing some stuff up. That was maybe the first time I vomited since very early age and this time I didn't try to stop it. After a few passes, I felt much better, although it took around 2-5 hours before I was completely purified of toxins. By around 8 pm I was ok again.
At the time, my ego mind felt out raged that someone was dangerous enough to endanger us, but my higher self gave me the option of an override. Instead of choosing to feel fear or anger, the reality I had to accept was that the poison was not a threat to me. Not really, once I allowed higher power to purify it. Thus there was no need to get angry at the threat, because there was no threat. The ego was pacified by not suppressing it or ignoring its advice, but by seriously considering whether there are threats and if there are no threats, there is no need to feel anger about anything. At that moment, I felt the vibration of joy and gratitude, because if anybody else had eaten that broccoli, they would be in real trouble. Thus the joy was that I could take the "hit" because I was spiritually tougher than my relative. The vibration then reset back to normal, the joy that surpasses understanding.
The leap of faith into the deep end. It felt very much like a 4.4 initiation test for the heart chakra. Many thoughts from the survival ego chakras I received, such as call for doctors or medicine or something. I chose to rely on my spiritual connection and place my life in the hands of my higher self, aka my god. It wouldn't be the first time nor the last. But that was the last time I was tested that severely for that initiation stage however. I assume I "passed" and thus more was opened to me.
The ego, the lower 3 chakras, was given plenty of evidence that our way was better guided by this power. It had experience and physical proof. Thus there was no conflict as is the case in other selves. The lower 3 chakra ego mind does not understand how it was possible... yet it understands that this power is useful and can be relied upon for survival. It began trusting via faith, in that which is unseen.