We the Choir Gather and We Learn to Sing Together

[Diana]

Am I supposed to be honest about this?

I, personally, sincerely hope you will always be.

For me, comparing myself to others to get a sense of my identity is something I've not leaned towards for a very long time.  That is, I don't look externally when assessing my sanity.  I don't look for allies in that regard.  I have a fairly strong sense of self as the one who does things with other people in the external planes of life, as well a sense of self as one who's traveled up and down innumerable hills and valleys along a spiritual path, and the combination of these two has led me to the present moment here, initially tapping out and further crafting this post.

I'm also pretty well past the need for preachers.  I'm no longer looking for new ideologies to explore, nor do I seek support for my own ideations, particularly.  I'm not seeking a group re-enforcement of self-ness nor of togetherness.  I'm not interested in singing about myself, nor in supporting you in doing the same.  I'm looking for different sorts of experience: not focusing on self-validation, but on creative exploration up into the firmament of deeper being.  I don't care about singing kumbaya, I yearn to soar into more deeply self-integrated vibrations of a magical self.

Doing this with other entities is fantastic, but so far I've only done so with those not of a corporeal disposition.  We'll see what happens next.

I think Eisenstein's book is a very relevant and hopeful book, and I appreciate his sentiment in the book being an ally for people.

I can relate in some ways to what you say, Sacred Fool. It can be a challenging place to be in that it is often judged to be that which it is not. I am often seen as cold, when that isn't it at all. I will say however, that in my case, though I am detached from the human drama to a great degree, I can still "play" here as the Significator does—the actor and the acted upon. I can, for example, go to a fundamentalist church and join in the joy there when Gospels are sung, while at the same time, being utterly misaligned with the ethos of Christianity. It is paradoxical-seeming but there really is no conflict there (for me)—it is absolutely sincere on my part. I feel this view is expressed in the following Ra quotes:

80.11 ▶ Questioner: Could I say, then, that implicit in the process of becoming adept is the possible partial polarization towards service to self because simply the adept becomes disassociated with many of his kind or like in the particular density which he inhabits?

Ra: I am Ra. This is likely to occur. The apparent happening is disassociation whether the truth is service to self and thus true disassociation from other-selves or service to others and thus true association with the heart of all other-selves and disassociation only from the illusory husks which prevent the adept from correctly perceiving the self and other-self as one.

80.12 ▶ Questioner: Then you say that this effect of disassociation on the service-to-others adept is a stumbling block or slowing process in reaching that goal which he aspires to? Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect. This disassociation from the miasma of illusion and misrepresentation of each and every distortion is a quite necessary portion of an adept’s path. It may be seen by others to be unfortunate.