What is the soul and how may I approach it?

[Black Dragon]

For many years I've been inching my way along like everyone else on a deliberate spiritual journey.  Much of that time was spent exploring conceptual models, clearing feeling and thought patterns which detoured my energy, and also delving into some of the weirder high frequency connections I just happened to have some connection with.  So, I was shoveling out crap from my lower centers, entertaining my mental apparatus and getting snippets of intimations from The Great Beyond, however, these elements were not coherently integrated.  Therefore, my capacity to be of any real service was significantly curtailed because...well...I could compare it to an automobile where the wires and hoses and all that are just not hooked together properly.  It will move around a bit, but I you wouldn't feel safe taking it out into traffic.

I find this part is a really good description of where I find myself at right now, like down to the letter. All of it, including "weird high frequency connections". There's some stuff adding up with some more or less "transient" subjects I've been researching, leading into some deeper and more personal/archetypal themes. There's that, and there's ever present work with the shadow and small bits of headway I've been making there. Sometimes it's nice to see my raw reflection anew each time someone new comes to the forums with bitterness. I feel bad and wish I could help them more, but I'm thankful for the service they unknowingly provide me. A lot of work remains to be done, but I feel as if I've at least "gotten the darn thing to start", but it's far from reliably "street worthy".

I'm glad to hear about your experience of seeming to reach a new point or phase in your own journey. Some strange things have been going on here lately, not in a bad way. Things are transforming. Part of it is all the energies we are being bombarded with at the moment at this critical threshold, sort of exacerbating the effects of our individual efforts of working on ourselves.