(05-12-2009, 08:22 AM)THB Wrote: I want to stress something here. I had no idea what I was getting into. I thought I understood that I was going to become some sort of modern day saint or something. Looking back from a 4th density mindset I realize that everything I thought that meant was completely incorrect, not in the external circumstances that I would face, but in the internal workings of my self and the way I would experience things. I could not have possibly known what the choice really entailed. Thus I fulfilled the second part of the equation, not really knowing what I was getting into. But as I’ve said, you can’t not fulfill this part, so it’s really a non issue.
Fantastic! I went through something very similar. There is the certain knowledge that you have crossed a barrier, and reality is never the same again, because you know that 3d perception is an illusion. Ra very carefully covered all of this, and as I've stated in other posts, it has to do with transcending the ego, although Ra didn't use the term ego but emphasized the dynamic of love which also dismantles 3d perception which is from the ego, and it allows the veil to be penetrated. This is a natural consequence of harvest. In my most humble opinion, it is accomplished by surrenderring the self to God. Again in my opinion, the most expeditious means of accomplishing it is through forgiveness. Isn't this an act of love? Remember, other-self is self. To forgive others is forgiveness of self. Maybe there are other ways, but I only know what has worked for me.