Help with self-forgiveness.

[Black Dragon]

As a former victim of obscene ritual torture who has forgiven his former abuser, I assert that the good one does can dwarf the negative in glorious fashion if one wills it.

Well that takes a lot. I can't even imagine when I read other people's posts here that have experienced that stuff first hand in such a fashion, I hear of these negative groups of people doing these sorts of things, but never seen it outright like that. I do believe that such forces have wrought havoc on my own life, but its such a different approach, really subtle and insidious, not so outright as ritual abuse or intensive gang stalking, but in a lot of ways just as effective. I think for some reason the "loyal opposition" feel they need to tread carefully with me, and I'm not really sure why, as I don't feel particularly protected, and though I feel way smarter and bigger than them and the whole system on some level, I also feel super weak, impotent, and unprotected in this particular incarnation. I feel I might have been in a situation as the material describes as a child at some point as far as negative non-human contact, where I was in a pretty negative state which allowed them to get a lock on me, but they made the mistake of thinking that's who I really was, and when they made contact, there was a huge blowback of my wanderer light leaking into their system and causing havoc/rebellion among the minions. That would be enough to piss them off and make me their new hobby for the rest of my incarnation for sure.