Healing Process for Intense and Severe Trauma

[Kaaron]

Great suggestions by Kaaron, but I believe, in the state you're in right now, you need a really good guide/mentor/teacher ASAP.

Perhaps this is the reason for his question?
I find it good to come here and get advice from people, who have the same basic belief structure ie. The Ra material.
Alot of people are good at healing...they aren't necessarily fully aware of psychological concepts or energy vampires etc.
This place has alot of concentration on the Law of One.
I spent alot of time looking for a teacher or guide...only to realize I am my own guide...its all in me.
Forgiveness is the step that will help release the expectation.
Love and forgive yourself.
Diana has awesome methodology.
It's good to ground and do normal sh!t too.
Go for walks and eat better.
Try to understand that there are always energy payments or rebalancing clauses, worked into our energy body.
Drugs can help intense epiphanies manifest but they are always going to have a draining effect "at the other end".
I don't get the feeling you're keen on that path...more that you are desperate and willing to try whatever you can.
The boundaries suggestion is awesome.
Also...if you find yourself upset...don't act for 24 hours.
Just sit with it.
Remember everything happens perfectly and waiting ain't gonna kill you.
Then you can get a fuller array of emotion without manifesting as much physically.
If you still want to act out what you initially felt...after 24 hours...go for it.