avoidant dismissive attachment

[Glow]

No, it made plenty of sense. Thank you for sharing that, Glow.

I feel bad for your friend. I really do. His karma will not be easy to shake. Neither is mine, but at least I'm getting the help I need. He's really lucky to have your support and it is really kind of you to keep supporting him like you do.

I guess I envy that 50% because there is a person in particular who has a life I want, and his security and confidence have made it so he can have what I want in life. I envy him for that. And I think to myself, those who look down on me and judge me don't know what it's like to deal with what I'm dealing with, and I feel more isolated and ashamed and resentful.

Thankfully, I've been given tools to take responsibility and heal all this. The chance to create the life I want still exists, even if certain details won't be exactly as I'd like them to be.

Anyway, thanks for your support Glow. It means a lot.

Thank you EP and thanks for sharing your perspective. I understand. One thing I will say is feeling ashamed should perhaps be reconsidered. You didn't start with the same situation or life circumstances so comparing your life to another's is a bit like saying a cheetah should be ashamed it can't fly like an eagle.

We do not have full awareness and without that there is no way to compare one experience to another, or one's perceived success with another's. Just wanted to mention that. You really do not need to carry that. It is heavy and inhibits healing. Be well.