01-11-2011, 06:24 PM
(01-11-2011, 10:57 AM)Shemaya Wrote: Recently, I told him that I no longer want to be part of a small group bible study that we have been part of for many years. The reason is that I feel I cannot give my energy to a patriarchal worldview because I feel so strongly that this has to change, and I feel responsible to be part of that change. I am honoring my truth and integrity, loving myself, as I direct my energy in spiritual groups that are more aligned with my beliefs and path. However, he is not happy with my decision, and I am unhappy with his unhappiness because we love each other. He does not see it my way and views my decision as "selfish". And I have difficulty in finding love in the patriarchal way that has oppressed feminine energy for too long, and I have difficulty being myself, fully and openly in that environment. I have wanted to find a way to do that for many years... a little better at it. But it is a bit of a dilemma and a paradox.
Does anyone have any thoughts about this dilemma?
Words of wisdom will be greatly appreciated!
Can you please clarify how being part of this group causes you difficulty in not being open and yourself? Is this about people in the group or the group itself. I guess if the talks can be centered around Mary and Jesus and how they lived and what they do and their energies then it does not have to be patriachial. What better way to bring Goddess energy in, by being right where it is needed the most?