Thank you Namaste for your kind thoughts
Maybe, and yet if I step in his shoes, he wants unity and cohesion in our family. And I know that I have judgment and anger in my heart.
Have you ever noticed that when you put two mirrors to each other they reflect back and forth to infinity? The reflection repeats ad infinitum....
Thank you for the encouragement:exclamation:
And yet finding center can be one of the hardest tasks, because their are so many options and so many energies to balance, so many loves to balance and center. Love of family, and love of friends, love of community, love of children, love of self.
I have gotten more adept at finding center in my body..it is an calm and solid anchor of truth. Finding that anchor in the moment....that is something to think about.
I like your explanation of the difference of STS and STO loving the self....thinking in context of how my intention is the benefit of others is helpful. My intention is to help create a world in which there is equal value, equal respect and honor given to the masculine and feminine energy. We have a ways to go to get there in this world!
In a way it seems that the patriarchy is my animus. I am so sensitive and reactive to that energy! How to accept and integrate this shadow-self, I am struggling to find a way.
I understand Marina!!
Hang in there sister, the orientation of finding the love in the moment is such service in and of itself, and then when you are able to actually find it, it does seem to have a doubling effect.
From my own example, in the scene I described above I was able to speak my truth with love that day. And though I fell into the pit somewhat the next day, I prayed, and did some reiki for the situation.
Then last night, my husband brought me home and installed a new dishwasher because mine has not been working well and finally broke down, and today he is texting me all about 1/11/11 and 11:11 a.m. Now that never happened before
And what a loving act for him to do that, he was up really late, and he did that because he loves me.
It does seem that things are opening up and resolving more quickly for us these days.
(01-11-2011, 12:36 PM)Namaste Wrote: You are not being selfish, rather, that comment from your husband stemmed from his own selfishness; he wants you to be how he wants you to be. That statement was a direct projection of his own imbalance.
Maybe, and yet if I step in his shoes, he wants unity and cohesion in our family. And I know that I have judgment and anger in my heart.
Have you ever noticed that when you put two mirrors to each other they reflect back and forth to infinity? The reflection repeats ad infinitum....
(01-11-2011, 12:36 PM)Namaste Wrote: You're very strong to do so, a wonderful example of integrity.
Thank you for the encouragement:exclamation:
(01-11-2011, 12:36 PM)Namaste Wrote: Q'uo, Bashar and Abraham all offer the same wisdom: you will never reach your greatest service to others if you do not follow your own truths. Only when one finds their own center and acts with integrity are they able to offer genuine service to others.
Loving the Self in the contexts of STS and STO are entirely different. STS entities love the Self at the expense of, and above others, while STO entities love the Self equally to, and for the benefit/service of others.
And yet finding center can be one of the hardest tasks, because their are so many options and so many energies to balance, so many loves to balance and center. Love of family, and love of friends, love of community, love of children, love of self.
I have gotten more adept at finding center in my body..it is an calm and solid anchor of truth. Finding that anchor in the moment....that is something to think about.
I like your explanation of the difference of STS and STO loving the self....thinking in context of how my intention is the benefit of others is helpful. My intention is to help create a world in which there is equal value, equal respect and honor given to the masculine and feminine energy. We have a ways to go to get there in this world!
In a way it seems that the patriarchy is my animus. I am so sensitive and reactive to that energy! How to accept and integrate this shadow-self, I am struggling to find a way.
(12-16-2010, 05:01 AM)Marina2 Wrote: I guess I have to accept my anger and resentment and keep being conscious of the fact that I must be learning something in this gig. And try to emotionally swim back towards the light. That overall attitude of looking for the love in the moment (the lesson or possible goodness) begins to make me feel lighter and more vibrant as I crawl out of the pit, and I guess it does help lift me out of it (the pit). Just crawling out right now after a hard day in relationship....Good night all.
In the love and light of the One infinite Creator, Adonai.
I understand Marina!!
Hang in there sister, the orientation of finding the love in the moment is such service in and of itself, and then when you are able to actually find it, it does seem to have a doubling effect.
From my own example, in the scene I described above I was able to speak my truth with love that day. And though I fell into the pit somewhat the next day, I prayed, and did some reiki for the situation.
Then last night, my husband brought me home and installed a new dishwasher because mine has not been working well and finally broke down, and today he is texting me all about 1/11/11 and 11:11 a.m. Now that never happened before
And what a loving act for him to do that, he was up really late, and he did that because he loves me.It does seem that things are opening up and resolving more quickly for us these days.