(03-25-2009, 02:08 AM)jc2412 Wrote: The question I have is, does anyone here have any experience with being married to someone who isn't ready to wake up yet and can offer advice?
Hi there. Hello friends. It seems a pattern of mine to jump in and respond in the forum before formally introducing myself. I hope no one and none of the moderators disapproves, and I will include my 'story' in the wanderers/introduction section very soon.
I liked your question. It made me smile and excited me a bit enough to want to share something of my own experience. I'm not 'married' which is perhaps a commitment to another self and an intimacy of a different level, but I have come to spend a great deal of time with someone who seems rather 'undecided' as far as polarization, or STS vs STO orientation. He is, I believe, agnostic. He sometimes makes little jokes. He says things like, "You're an alien, aren't you ?" He has seen the small growth behind my ear which, beneath the skin, is a type of 'alien' implant, and says, "That's so your masters can always find you, isn't it ?" He says these things jokingly, but there is something like wonder and perhaps a bit of fear in his eyes. I don't explain. I have no interest in frightening or shocking him. I say to him simply, "I wonder."
I haven't 'had the talk' about my 'beliefs' with him yet. Once we had a few drinks together and he said, "I don't understand it. I'm not my usual self when I'm with you." Because my inhibitions were somewhat lowered due to alcohol, I said to him, "Don't worry about it. It's like that for everyone around me. It's just what I do." I believe that the spark of what some might call 'awareness' can't help but 'irradiate' those who come into contact with me, and by the same token, I bring to my self those things, and those people, who in some way or another, I have chosen for my learning. It probably works the same for the 'confused' or undecided people around me.
I've watched quietly as my companion examined the spines of my books on a shelf. This arrangement of books includes the four volumes of The Law of One. He stands a few feet away but leans forward to look at them, his hands clasped behind his back. It's very cute. Something attracts him, and either he doesn't know what it is or, based on my experience with other selves of service-to-self orientation, he's very clever and feigning ignorance. I tend to lean toward the former. I have no interest in shocking him or 'waking him up' to my perception of 'reality.' I simply 'am' and allow him to 'be', and together we go forward in our time together experiencing the great and small wonders of creation. What I am, whatever that is, shines through and 'rubs off' on him. He'll ask me direct questions in his time (or not), and 'wake up' when he's ready.