Depression and Accepting or Resisting Futility

[Minyatur]

So how do I get to that point?

I don't remember struggling with loneliness much, so I can't share my own working with that, but I think it boils down to inner balance and at some point everything can be seen as a variation of the same. Sometimes I even find the Earth and people so heavy I feel like after dying I should find a pocket dimension and spend an eon alone to rejuvenate lol. Kind of an ephemeral wish though, because some things are really heavy and it is easy to feel overwhelmed, but others are a true gift we should appreciate.

Meditate on the feeling and dive into it, deeper and deeper, and find the root of this helplessness and console it yourself. I think that is a bit how it works for each thing, to feel complete on anything you need to become what fills the hole, instead of seeking something external to fill it. Maybe there are many things, insecurities, self-judgment and so on, but like Rita said you can always touch within yourself a truly unconditional love that will not judge and instead make to feel whole what feels unwhole. If a part of you feels like it's not enough, you tell it yourself that it is and that it can do good and grow and become what it wants.

It may sound stupid, but I've done many solo psychedelic trips where it opened me in a way I had nothing other to do than work like this and it brought me to myriads of moments of my life where parts of myself where shutdown. It made it easy for me because I was like the contrasting vibe, like I'd feel old insecurities and it just warmed my heart like "Oh gosh! no don't think like that, you are so wonderful, you didn't have to see it like that, etc". It may help to try to remind yourself how you were younger and superpose the difference in energy, to remind yourself what your innate potential was. I don't really think how I feel over loneliness is that good, because in a salvia trip I saw a moment near my birth and an attempt to reach out to a nurse to be ignored and I felt deeply from my blue ray and down a huge shutdown and a strong "I don't want to need others" vibe, I saw that as my deepest blockage and the vibe I had right before that instant was so very pure and innocent. I still have a lot to do to recover what I initially had to offer to this world, but the process is in progress. Believing in yourself is the best way forward.

It sounds easy in words, but it is extremely deep work and I think it is better to see it as an on-going process. As we exchange with others, we absorb part of their energy and so also their insecurities and so on. There's always things to work upon, but we can take a liking to it if we become able to see the love found in each thing.

You'll better handle loneliness I think if you see its beauty, be proud of what you are. If not now, trust me that at some point you will.