Deciding to connect with my higher self

[AnthroHeart]

My higher self seems foreign to me. I don't recognize it as myself.
I can only trust Creator.
I can't even trust my own thinking sometimes.

I'm afraid to activate my higher self, or to call upon it, because it is like taking on the magical personality.
And I don't have what it takes to handle the magic.

So I can only surrender to the will of the Universe. I don't know what else to do.

I really hope you are able to find your higher self EP.

I hope you find a way to be able to handle taking on the magic of connection to your higher self. Perhaps a QHHT session could help? I intend to get one down thr line.

My mom is trained in QHHT. She could do one for free for me, but she has to be in the mood and we don't always get along.
She is in pain a lot, and her knees are almost giving out, so it's hard for her to do a full induction.
It's hard to trust her though because she's into pulling out demons and loves learning about negative things, and wants to build God's empire.
Last time she did QHHT on me, she said afterwards I made the whole thing up.

But there is a hypnotist I trust that I could see.