Prayer

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I pray all the time... but don't call it that...

I share my life with 15 Archangels
so share my heart thoughts, feelings and sometimes (often) just sit within their energy field (surrounding me)...

sometimes out loud - sometimes in my mind

I live in a state of 24/7 connection with these Beings

Are the angels at the level above Christ Consciousness? Is that how you challenge who is speaking to you?
I test energy I feel with the Christ Consciousness and it sits just above my crown chakra.
So I feel the energy enter, no real personality, just a feeling of peace.

hmmm... I'm not sure what hierarchical system you're describing....

Initiation as a channel for Usui Reiki in 1994 means that I have automatic "Light" entering my crown chakra 24/7; and exiting my palm chakras... this has significantly helped keep me alive as I do self treatment with Reiki sometimes for hours a day...

I feel evoking 'Christ consciousness' is a good protection... but I guess I already felt protected within that energy from years of (positive) Christian contemplation and idealistic STO trance-like prayer states I've already experienced... Archangels came to me (clair-sentiently I feel them)  - but for respect (and my privacy) it's not appropriate to describe further...

The purity is the main aspect - love and wisdom combined... the one known as 'Michael' is permanently (at/slightly behind) my right shoulder for several years now... and once at a spiritualist church a (beginner) medium giving readings saw 'a massive being' at that location - the same side/size and described massive 'wings' of 'light' she was quite blown away by what she was seeing/sensing... for me - it was a lovely confirmation - but no surprise

We made an agreement (2009) for 15 to surround me permanently and I say their names in my mind or out loud most nights before sleep; and whenever I feel I need to I converse with them (as a group) they're 'with' me 24/7 so it's an integrated thing.

I did the investigation a long time ago to ensure their 'orientation'.

Also - I was baptised, made my first "Holy Communion', then my 'Confirmation' - brought up Catholic and went to church every week from birth to 16/17...so I developed my initial spirituality through conventional Christian ideas and that form of prayer, first. Archangels were 'in the mix' of that spiritual landscape - so I've never felt a formal protocol was needed... though it was 10 years ago I actually directly called out to them... but I already implicitly knew them as purest positive intention entities.
(NB: for some people being baptised means I'm 'owned' - spiritually compromised - to others - that I'm protected - I give neither idea any power.)

At about 10 I had an awakening that 'the anti-Christ' was probably resident within the Vatican (due to the wealth hoarding, double standards, controlling-ness, etc) (as in where better to hide than where least expected to be found?) and over the following 15 years slowly eased away from defining myself as a Catholic or a Christian mostly due to biblical fear laden ideology and that Jesus wouldn't have wanted to be 'worshipped'.

I don't relate to there being an omnipotent creator being - "God" - as an entity/being. Especially the male identity used - irritating and paternalistic because if "God" were a gender it would more be a generative womb-like female presence... but I feel reduction to gender or singularity (even plurality contained within the singular terminology of the concept of 'God') - is very human psychology based and just doesn't resonate with me...

for me- such a massive 'thing' (the whole of existence - and the mystery of It)... can't be narrowed down to that 'creator' mythos - but I fully respect if it feels right for whomever.

I prefer to let 'It' slowly unfold itself to me rather than adopt pre-prepared ideas, or what others think - for emotional security...

I think Jesus (historical figure) was/is different to 'Christ consciousness' but linked- and I respect both... I know the 'tone' of both and the purity of intent and STO... imo they're the same being in different slipstreams/time-lines/forms.

I know of Archangels first through Biblical reference but from study have found information that resonates that they're non denominational beings/entities... partially energy 'principalities'... but more and other than that too... I recently was reading the Quo info about AA Gabriel being 6D which sits 'accurately' with me...

I see them as Guardians, protectors, advisors and show them major respect - but not deference or 'worship'... they are my helpers to stay alive since a lot of my life I've been suicidal or very uneasy being individuated in a singular physical form

                        I never felt comfortable with Christian-bashing when it become fashionable... though understand how much hypocrisy is among many forms of it...
I always liked 'Jesus'...

At 17 I had a terrifying experience where I spent the night sharing a room with a born again hard core evangelical Christian who through speaking about her beliefs and going on and ON about the 'Devil' accidentally (?) invoked that actual entity and 'he' arrived in the room and the malevolence and violence/fear/darkness filled up every corner every 'molecule' of life force in the room converting it to the opposite - she went to sleep, (FFS!) and I lay there all night frozen to the bed motionless in extreme fear- with the 'presence' right there ... and I eventually reached out to my upbringing's idea of the exact opposite (God/Jesus/Holy Spirit) to vanquish the entity - or at least get it to f*** off back to hell (or wherever)... I have NEVER felt fear like that before or since... but the experience informed me SO WELL... that choosing LOVE and LIGHT is the absolute REFUGE - it is the default state of everything - and this creatures 'power' was only in what I allowed it to have.
BUT - the process to learn that! sheer terror.
THE 'face off' of my life.

Later I learned that though that was a 'real' experience - "the only thing to fear is fear itself" (therefore f*** off fear) ie: it only has the power it's given/allowed.

Since then I've had a few dreams where I've had a monstrous being up in my face and I've turned and screamed at them with such authority' power and strength they've recoiled from my refusal to give them any credence or authority ...

(I LOVE that scene in the Lord Of The Rings where Gandalf tell the Balrog "YOU SHALL NOT PASS" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJZZNHekEQw)

to paraphrase a reply on that link:

"Gandalf leads with ’you cannot pass’ as if ...like, here are the instructions to this particular bridge when concerning you, the Balrog. But then he finishes with ’you SHALL not pass’ which is telling him the outcome. I don’t care what you can or can’t do, don’t care what the rules say, you AIN’T passing, that’s what’s up!”

darkness is an absence of Light... darkness is a state of lack of Love - it can't de-illuminate - a light illuminates a dark room a dark room can't extinguish a light...


I used to volunteer for the Red Cross in neurosurgery and maternity wards as a hand/foot massage care giver (and Usui Reiki) and often when walking down the corridor before getting to the wards I'd sense 2 AA's one on either side of me - about maybe 11-12 feet tall, massive 'wings'...

NB: every reply above has aspects describing my own relationship with 'prayer' beautiful replies

great thread