Agony, Joy & "Terrible Love"

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It strikes me that the "you get what you give" idea tends to refer to lateral affairs of giving and receiving, not a kind of 3 dimensional chess.

Or 8, as the case may be!

That is, when a beneficent one receives negativity on the lateral plane, it also is fully capable of tuning into other planes of love and beauty, and receiving those vibrations as well.  When one is committed to holding up one's candle to the blinding darkness, one should not be surprised to find darkness staring back.  But if an entity is energetically supple, it can vibrate its being, not merely in response to the narrow band of despair or pain, etc., but also to the loving frequencies of its deeper nature.

Yes, this makes sense to me. I suppose if I were able to tune into that "pure bliss" band at will, then the ephemeral illusions of blinding darkness might appear less cumbersome to my 3D sensibilities.

Then again, I might suppose that *I AM* able, at least in theory, to tap into those frequencies of higher love and bliss. Yet it would seem I am lacking in that quality of energetic suppleness that you refer to.

Intellectually speaking, I fully believe that those higher planes exist, and are accessible within my own being. Yet the experience of them continues to elude me. I've asked, quite sincerely, for even a brief taste of this feeling so that I could at least remember what it was like. Just a little something to tide me over while I continue to stumble about the darkness with my little candle. However I am still waiting on the reply... it would appear the higher dimensional aspects of myself have deemed it unwise for me to experience this yet.

Much catalyst in my life has centered upon others acting belligerent toward me, and then attempting to gaslight me into believing it was something I did to cause them to behave in this manner. It is extremely difficult for me to feel anything positive toward this type of catalyst, much less unbridled praise and thanksgiving.