Regarding the nature of light.

[GentleReckoning]

The most positive thing you can do is become two where you are now one. I've known that for 4 years. If I had one friend in the physical, I would have escaped all this density. When there are two, health becomes a party instead of a hell.

For you your parents will likely create a positive environment for you. For me, it will probably take another year or two.