Regarding the One Infinite Creator

[Taralie Peterdaughter]

After reading all the Ra sessions I am wondering if this creator isn't an entity that is utter STS. If this being created all there is, and it decided to know itself through what it made, did it know that it's creation would suffer both physically and every other way? Would that make this Creator non-benevolent? Also, if we are all one, then that makes us also the one infinite creator as well, correct? Or are we co-creators and that's it?

Any thoughts that would help me with this?

I have doubts similar to this really come to surface after reading Ra. I think part of the paradox of being at this state of being is the very fact of being at odds with God. I think the philosophical and emotional conflict with the idea that a God would do this on purpose is at the very core of this experience. In other words i think embodying the great conflict here with god is a sure sign we are where we need to be. We are truley in a deep illusion of separation. We have deep anger at god and an inability to really fathom. But in our small own ways can see how catalyst does work. I think of jesus's last words on the cross. In his great moment of doubt right before death, as a perfect example of how important this human quest and doubt is. To be god and to not know. To be god and to not be able to fathom- i mean this is what we are!!! I think perhaps god itself is not really an intellectual force. Perhaps the intellect is a very primitive tool indeed. My heart understands catalyst more than my mind. My mind has a bone or two to pick with god. I've seen too much suffering.