The most negative entity

[EvolvingPhoenix]

And literally the major point of disconnection is that by simply allowing yourself to enjoy other people's appearance in a non-needy fashion in your day-to-day life that sexual sins disappear.

Considering that that sin is the foundation of almost all religions, it is no wonder.

Is that a part of what Rasputin meant by his "salvation through sin" ideology?

For the negative, feeling good, or bad, is not the desire. Any time I meditate, I go to cloud nine almost immediately. It is simply an unrepressing of the child to an extent which makes the collectives subconscious very, very, nervous.

Huh. So maybe negative polarization is a good thing. I've actually been thinking about that. It seems the negative is masculine energies trying to figure out how much of their own will as creators to exert and experiencing negative karmic rebalancing in order to better learn how to do it, is what you're essentially saying. I thought this myself for a bit, but not as refined as you put it. This is why negative entities create these pecking orders. They are recognizing themselves as creator and exploring mainly the distortion of free will as it applies to themselves. As such, it makes sense to them that when they lose a contest of dominance, that it is naturally "right" to them, because since we are all the one and infinite creator, he who has the higher willpower must be exercising their creative free-will as source with more certainty, therefor accepting more RESPONSIBILITY for their creation. This is why so many people willingly enslaved themselves. This is the main appeal I think behind masochism. That, and the idea that in enjoying the pain, one is free from it's ability to inflict suffering.

Huh... I just connected my own previously afforementioned power issues now with my understanding of the negative path by understanding my own unconscious choice the live the illusion of powerlessness. Relinquishing control gives us the illusion of less power and therefor responsibility. Those seeking power are willing to shoulder the responsibility of having it... when a misuse of their power results in an outcome they dislike, polarity is lost because faith in their ability to shoulder the responsibility of creation is lost. Interesting...

I have no idea what density I am anymore. I'm pretty sure your body operates at all densities simultaneously. It's just how we filter our experience that creates our conscious perception of work at various intensities of light.

Your (admittedly, seeming) focus unity and attempts at balance suggest 6th density to me... I get the feeling of 6th. But who knows?

EDIT: Perhaps you were negative 6th density and you're still learning to balance negative with positive?

Another edit:

Since negative polarity beings lose certainty in their choices as the way they lose polarity, this is why so many are afraid of depolarizing. They're afraid of fucking up. They're afraid of being uncertain. They're afraid of having to go through more karmic bullshit. They're afraid they won't have what it takes unless they do it perfectly. So they close off their hearts until they no longer can avoid what they need to learn to continue to create. At some point, to continue existing, it becomes necessary for them to come full circle and embrace unity/positivity. In a sense, this is like going through 4th density positive after 3rd density: a need to chillax (yes, I just used that word LOL) after eons of basically having a big stick up your ass. A need to learn to be vulnerable again, so you can learn to process all that catalyst you spent so long creating for yourself. And a need to accept the growing power of others not being a threat to your own creation, as ultimately, the catalyst one creates is of highest meaning when it is DIGESTED. A means of learning to co-create with both energies. I have theorized the existence of Twin Flame relationships as being important in the further development of 6th density beings on either path. Perhaps calling in a TF relationship can teach you whatever it is you're trying to learn to balance out? Since the DF has to learn to take back their own power without losing love and the DM has to learn to take a step back and relinquish some degree of control (this is why the DF must lead, I take it) without losing their propensity for creation. So if you're trying to relax and "enjoy the show" perhaps this lack of control can best be healthily adopted in a TF union? After all, the initial "runner phase" will DEFINITELY challenge you to do so. I dunno. Just a thought. Then again, I learned quite a bit from a relationship that was NOT of a TF nature, albeit one with startlingly similar aspects to it in terms of dynamic. So maybe it's not advisable. If you're aware of your need to chill out and digest, perhaps it is unnecessary in such a case.


It leads me to wonder... cause on one hand, if it were truly what the doctor ordered, wouldn't you be experiencing it? On the other hand, I haven't had a QHHT session and now I endeavor manifesting the right QHHT session for myself in order to better heal whatever karmic issue I'm healing. I feel it would be best... but if it were truly what were best, would I need to ask for it? But then, wouldn't that concept apply to manifestation magic in general? So maybe throwing it out there for the universe is a way of helping the universe help you? I dunno... I'm still trying to figure it out. Sorry if this comes off as rambling. I am still figuring it out myself and I guess I'm at a point where talking about it with others helps to bring me more clarity, even though I have too little clarity to come off as authoritative by any means. So it all just kind of seems rather non-sequitur or unfocused, but still helps create better focus. So I'm just throwing ideas out there, seeing how they make sense to me after being externalized.

Edit #3:

Still, perhaps watching another so closely... well, you, digest your catalyst is the best way for a divinely masculine energy to learn how to properly digest it oneself? Again, why the DF chases (and therefore leads in the process of self-empowerment in a positive manner) and the DM runs (in order to challenge the DF into a position of leadership which would better help understand the meaning created from the catalyst as it relates to your whole self?) you know, like balancing creative with receptive energies? Yin and yang? If you're struggling to balance out the yang energy with yin, perhaps that's a way to facilitate the process, basically? In your case prolly not necessary, but I guess I'm just exploring how this dynamic relates to what I'm learning.

As of yet a process not employed in my case either, but an interesting concept nonetheless.

Again, sorry for more rambling...