The most negative entity

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Is simply the individual which can cause the greatest change in the future. This is because when we create we pull not with just our physical body, but our emotional body, and our mental body as well. (all the way up to the top of course) If it is translatable to the physical plane, it will be.

In this way the demon hunter always becomes the greatest negative entity. The demon hunter then learns how to defeat his/her demon and becomes a paladin. When the paladin encounters paradox, then the paladin moves towards the scientist. As soon as the scientist understands social dynamics and power structures, then the scientist becomes king. And you can of course get people to call you God. This is just God's light (truth or pure masculine energy) transferring into the physical as by connecting more to your true self you create more and more of your reality to balance. As your reality increases in volume, then you learn how to tune dissonance out more and more. Eventually, you simply become totally alien to the timeline you exist in, as it is rare that teachers are not actively sought and encouraged. Instead the confusion caused by being ruled primarily by TV programming causes the projection of all your subconscious or programmed aspects can be rooted out before the true self comes out.

Once this happens, you create massive dissonance between yourself and your environment. This manifests as projecting zombie like or asleep features onto them. Garr certainly made comments alluding to this, and Don eventually projected so much paranoia (as the group became more and more impactful or negative to the local environment as vibration IS location based). Eventually you just manifest 'bad luck' and are disempowered to the extent that you become the hermit. It is at this point that the 40 days in the wilderness happens as it was called in the religion called christian.

If the individual feels supported enough by his/her environment, this can happen as a test of faith or a climb to a mountain top. For me it was fairly typical in that I simply manifested distance from all societal relationships. And then your final sins are brought before you. Mine were typical in that I wanted to be a savior. However, Jesus had warned me not to try to save people locked by seals and symbols. Instead, stick your arm under the fabric as it were, and beseech God directly.

If you ARE righteous, you will attract energy to your cause. And if you prefer love over fear, what you will create will be colored by that energy. And if you can sense cords and energies, then you will know you for you, and will be able to easily tell when you are misaligned. Men are more attuned to the physical, while women soul of course. So in times like these men will attune to soul as a feat of strength so as to learn/teach other men. Meanwhile, women, more connected to soul, willfully support greater density in their archetypal roles. This is why, of course, so many women are breaking their archetypal role in dress, demeanor, and relational perspective. This is also why so many spiritual seekers give up the physical in their search of soul as they realize at a deep level that all action does is create learning, and that there is value in simply enjoying what one is digesting in leu of excessive catalyst of any kind.

This dispels some of the confusion.

I think this is what I'm doing lately. Just enjoying what I digest instead of creating excessive catalyst. When I talked to you on the phone, I remember you saying I was creating too much catalyst for myself. I thought of it as basically taking my sorry, deeply scarred and wounded body while it was healing and putting it through a giant meat grinder only to pull myself out of said meat grinder. I remember praying that I felt I had finally had my ass whooped enough and was ready to heal from it all. Once I had gotten through my dark night of the soul (I'm either out or almost out) I learned to just enjoy and put faith in my higher self. I am CONFIDENT that a life of creation as you've mentioned is heading my way, but for right now, I have lovingly asked my ego to chill out a bit and my higher self to help me out in specific ways. I still must learn guitar, but my job right now is to find a way to relax and HAVE FUN. I think just healing from my dark night of the soul and having fun and being present is currently my task. Once I'm creating, I can fulfill the change inducing role I know I'm meant to create.

I think I may have had power/authority in a past life and abused it or something. Maybe gotten people killed. As I reflect on my irrational fears regarding playing guitar (For a bit, it took immense willpower to overcome anxiety around simple A chord, E chord and D chord transitioning and that little lead guitar line from "Born in the USA" Easy as hell, but will major fear/anxiety causing massive yellow ray and sacral blockages) I come to the conclusion that I DEEPLY fear power, which comes with responsibility. I project power/authority issues onto others and have been dealing with them my whole life (possible/probable karmic readjustment/rebalancing?) and always feared being like those people. I realize now that I cannot escape from the responsibility of having power, as I have potential and therefor, power. Just not control. So I am just as responsible at my smallest as I am at my largest. Yet I still have found myself struggling. Listened to a "past life healing" vid on YT for 2 hours. Felt better. Practiced much more comfortably. Possible placebo effect? Maybe. Possibly worked? Also maybe.

Either way, I say it's just part of the rhythmic flow of things. You go through the process and then you take a break and relax. Maybe that's why 4th density is so comfortable and slow. People are recovering from 3rd density and need to just take it easy for a bit.

As for putting your hand under the veil and beseeching God directly...

I've been focusing heavily on manifestation practices lately and I've been pretty ambitious. I, in a moment of joy and intense visualization, envisioned many things to come for humanity, mentally pulling myself into the timeline where humanity develops a theme of inspiration as service: Inspiring each other, ourselves and all around us into infinity. I also worked on manifesting a reality wherein people take better care of their planet, treat animals better, come into their own creatively, and make the world physically beautiful (According, admittedly to MY preferences) And where people start leading each other and taking responsibility for their own power. Yet another reason why I must learn this lesson myself first, so I can help get the ball rolling.

And so I wonder... is this more along the lines of what Jesus/Sananda meant when talking about beseeching God directly? I was inspired by a video on YT where Sandanda's channeled message said we can affect great change by practices such as these that are visible as light from the etheric perspective and we are VERY MUCH being witnessed the universe as we do so. So is this more what it looks like?

Or am I misunderstanding?